omg!!..its not you its them..believe me im living through this crap too.its hard to move on after it keeps happening over and over but im finding God it useing me to help others..dunno how but he is..im not perfect at it because its like trying to talk to myself when talking to other victums..you might have to change location or something to get away from ppl for a while..i need to..i long too.but i cant right now..not until two more years pass..i dont know everything in your situation but im here to help or just talk..im better at talking..
theres not a day goes by i want to kill myself because of the ptsd from it all but i push forward as much as i can.and God helps me even though i think he aint.

you need to move across country buddy. start new, start fresh.

I believe that every time you make somebody happy the world is a happier place to live in.

'He' made it a sadder place to live in by what he did to you.

Please understand that all of this comunity loves you (even if they do not know you yet) and hates what hapened to you.

How I would love to take your pain away, please keep us informed that you are still ok everyday and willbeezy is right try to put as much distance between yourself and that guy as you can.

Get a GUN,a LICENSE, learn how to use it, and never, EVER open the door without it, and blow that f-cker's head off the even he EVEN looks like he will come across the door.
Had Nichole Simpson killed that jerk OJSimpson, both she and Goldman would have been alive, and this EARTH would have been much better off.....
WHY should YOU want to die when he is the culprit??? What IS it with women allow this???? just don't understand.

CALL the COPS or you might has well forget it, because he is going to KEEP ON.

Ok the guy above me is a jerk. You obviously didn't 'allow' it to happen or it wouldn't be rape. I would say the gun is not a bad idea to have around but you aren't going to answer the door with a gun in your hand every time. I would call the police and file the report, have pictures taken of the bruises and cuts let them get the evidence they need to put this piece of shit in jail for assault at least. If you don't want to have someone probing your vagina to prove it was rape I don't blame you... but at least the assault and battery ok?
We have laws in this country to protect you please call the police and use them.

All the love I have I'm sending in your direction.
Just a thought; maybe you could keep pepper spray with u. I do.

It's not your fault that you were attacked! When people take us by surprise and treat us like prey, they are the guilty ones, not you!

Take some deep breaths and get some counseling, immediately...if you can make yourself do it, leave your premises, until you feel you are sure that you are going to be safe, again, at home, by yourself...is there a sibling/parent/trusted friend that would be willing to pick you up and take you to a place of real safety?

Please, keep us posted...we care!