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Starting to feel angry all the time?

SophiasMom2010
SophiasMom2010
Today I cried so hard i almost threw up. Through this whole ordeal i have tried to understand that God is trying to give me wisdom through pain and trying to not be angry at Him. But today i screamed at him and cried. I'm so angry lately... I see mothers who drink and smoke in their pregnancies and i wonder why their children are healthy and mine had to die. Everyone i know is buying christmas presents for their new babies... and i can't even bring myself to visit my daughters grave. I'm feeling overwhelmed and lost and mad as hell, it's been 3 months tomorrow since i lost my heart and i still can't accept it. Any help?
MomOfTiberius
MomOfTiberius
I feel the same way, its been two months for me since I lost Ty. I have been increasingly angry at a lot of things. The fact that two people in the last week have told me to get over it and move on and there surprised at the fact that I'm not over it yet? I mean honestly, two months and people expect us to be resolved. It pisses me off. All I can say about that is we deserve the right to feel what we do and when we do, there is no time line to grief.

I hate that its Christmas, its like were being assaulted everywhere we go with horrible reminders of joy, its just thrown in our face. I still have a huge urge to buy Ty Christmas presents so I'm going to. I'll get him a few things, some for his memory box and some for his grave, its one thing that makes me feel better. I'm still a mother, he is still my son and even though he is not here does not mean he shouldn't get presents.

I hate seeing pregnant women smoke and drink, in fact my cousin did both in addition to drugs and her baby is fine, why? I don't see how it is far. I do share in your angry and its normal.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry you are going through this.
I have been dealing with a lot of anger, too. I have been angry because I was blaming God for taking Max's life. I am working through the anger by trying to think that God isn't responsible for Max's death but He is responsible for giving him life. God gave him a life for a purpose and I'm trying focus on finding meaning and trying to be thankful for the life he was given even though it was so short. Taking action to make his life meaningful helps when I am having the worst of days. I am still really angry but when I think of things this way it helps a little bit. I hope that helps in some way.
rave713
rave713
I still have those days...and its been almost a year. Someone the other day asked me if I was ready for christmas. But honestly I feel like Scrooge. I don't want christmas to get here and no i'm not ready..I lost my daughter on the 19th of December last year. Christmas is simply not christmas for me. I too have the anger, I just don't know where to place it. I find myself still reading the bible from time to time. Sadly the only thing I read is the book of Job. Because that's who I feel like these days. I hope you can find some peace during this time, but know that your allowed to feel the way you do.