Stillbirth Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have been impacted by a stillbirth. A stillbirth occurs when a fetus which has died in the uterus, during labor, or during delivery exits a woman's body. For help and support, share your experiences and learn how others coped. Don't forget that you are not alone.
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I first want to say hello to all of you ladies that were my saving grace last May when I lost my first daughter at 32 weeks. I haven't been on in a while, and I would love to get to know all of the newcomers to the site also.
For a long time, I came to this site multiple times daily as my comfort zone. I read posts, typed posts, and wrote in a journal. After a while, when the pain started easing (and it does to all those out there whose losses are still so fresh in their hearts and memories) I took a break...then fear kept me away.
I shut the door to my daughters nursery, and then hid behind the pain during the months that my focus was on nothing but trying to conceive again.
Then I realized that even though my days aren't consumed by my loss the way they used to be, that I can't remember the "before." Before my life was turned upside down, before I though if only my daughter were here my life would be perfect, before when I was young and hot (now I feel old and chunky by the way and I'm 25). I just want to reconnect.
I first want to say hello to all of you ladies that were my saving grace last May when I lost my first daughter at 32 weeks. I haven't been on in a while, and I would love to get to know all of the newcomers to the site also.
For a long time, I came to this site multiple times daily as my comfort zone. I read posts, typed posts, and wrote in a journal. After a while, when the pain started easing (and it does to all those out there whose losses are still so fresh in their hearts and memories) I took a break...then fear kept me away.
I shut the door to my daughters nursery, and then hid behind the pain during the months that my focus was on nothing but trying to conceive again.
Then I realized that even though my days aren't consumed by my loss the way they used to be, that I can't remember the "before." Before my life was turned upside down, before I though if only my daughter were here my life would be perfect, before when I was young and hot (now I feel old and chunky by the way and I'm 25). I just want to reconnect.
Sheri
*hugs*
Dezna
I think one of the hardest things about this devastating journey is the way the pain can 'ambush' you, just when you think you're regaining control of your emotions. The day my baby died remains the worst day of my life; when it happened, I naively assumed that things couldn't get any worse and I would follow a steady upward trajectory thereafter: towards happiness and a return to my "before" life. The reality was that I didn't hit rock bottom for another 5 months, by which time I had no physical or emotional reserves left and I knew that my "before" life had gone forever and I would have to create a new and different one from ground zero.
Babyloss is huge and the journey that follows is not clear or straightforward; it is complicated and achingly lonely. But I believe that the support of a community of fellow travellers can share and 'spread' the burden: other angel mums can lift your spirits when even your closest loved ones can't.
I hope it helps you to reconnect with all of us - peace and hugs, Lee