I was with you ! My husband and I were also crying on Christmas . I just want the whole season over. I took down my tree already and packed it away. I want it dnbe. My daughter was originally due 1/3/12 and I gave birth to her 9/15/11. This year is awful.

Feeling lost isn't even close to how I feel. I am in the bottom of a big black abyss of sadness. I keep saying I just want this year to be over...I was having some hope for next year, but now...I have the feeling that next year will just continue on with the misery of this year.

I still cannot find a job and feel like a complete loser...my husband's job sucks (for him) and he is struggling to hold it together, he needs surgery and the military won't pay for it, and now we lost our rainbow. When will this end? I am living in a constant state of fear that another something terrible is going to happen. I just want to crawl in a hole.

I will pray for you and all of us...I hope my prayers for others work as they don't seem to be working too well for me.

Hugs and wished for a light in our tunnels...

My eyes are filled with tears - I am sending you all prayers and I hope with everything in me that these prayers will come true for you all. Please know that you are being thought of - I only wish I could do more for you. ((BIG HUGS))

Us too, cried the whole time. Soooo looking forward to 2011 being over already. It's hard not to give in and fall into this pit of despair that always seems to be hovering near by, but all I can do is keep trying and not lose hope. Let's just convince ourselves that 2012 will be a great year!

I think I'm getting to the point beyond tears.

EmmasMom said it well. It's hard not to want to give up. But, remember, to get the things you want so badly in life ....all you need is hope. Yes!! It is so so easy to feel despair. Emma is right..let us CLAIM that 2012 will be a great year. Know what you want, Have hope AND take action!

I am feeling your pain. Watching my 6 month nieces open all their presents and smiling and laughing hurt me so much. My son should have been there with them. I want a baby sooooo badly. I'm getting so sick of BFNs. I feel like every month I see AF, she takes another piece of me with her. I just want 2012 to come with a nice fresh start. I think we all deserve that. I'm sending all of you my thoughts and prayers. xo

Every year for the last 3 years i have said - next year will be better and 2011 started out looking awesome and then... Choas!
This year all i am asking for is the strength to handle any shit that 2012 may throw at me ... nothing more.
Maybe not positive, but realistic!

Hugs and prayers that we can find some little scrap of joy on this miserable road.

It is awful to feel so sad and empty. A year and three months in is very early in your journey of grief. For some people it takes longer, and it is so sad that you have had to make this journey twice.We all feel the same pain, you are not alone. Remember that you can come to this site and express whatever you are feeling and know that no-one will judge you.

It's been 16 months since Annaya's Heaven birth and I miss her so much. I have 2 older children who need me. Annaya's tree was purple with all of the beautiful ornaments that many of the people who started on this site with me.

It is a rough time of year and we must make it through. Since Annaya's Heaven birth I have been afraid to leave the house. i only leave the house when I have to.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel... Blessings to you and all of the loss community in 2012.

Many Hugs!!!
Nneka