Stillbirth Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have been impacted by a stillbirth. A stillbirth occurs when a fetus which has died in the uterus, during labor, or during delivery exits a woman's body. For help and support, share your experiences and learn how others coped. Don't forget that you are not alone.
today its been worse..iam missing my daughter very badly...i spent all day crying and thinking about my baby ...the time she used to move in my belly..the songs i used to sing to her ..i feel sooo torn out without her.i didnt step out of the house since she passed and i somehow dont have the courage to go out and face the world ..i wish this all to be a bad dream..why dont i deserve my baby girl???what great sin have i committed to face such a great loss??i want to hug my baby girl very badly.i lost all the hopes.we had so many plans for the lil girl..now we lost hope in everything..I am scared of thinking of TTC because iam not sure if it would happen...i have no words to express my feelings but i feel terribly broken.tears rolling down as iam writng this.dont know what to do...every day seems like a century to me..my angel's due date was in april.i dont know how i will face that month.she is in my eyes the whole day what ever iamdoing ..i just cant keep my thoughts not thinking of her even for a second.at the same time i feel like a big failure ..cud'nt give my husband a baby he asked for and i feel so very guilty...to face anyone.i have not spoken to anyone since i lost my baby except my husband and grown my sister who was here to help me for few days..i dont have any support from friends or family and i feel no one else in the world can understand this feeling except the people who have gone thru this situation.so iam putting all my feelings here..my mother tongue is not english so iam short of words to express myself but i know the pain we all are going through ...and i hope god will hear us and give us some strength to go thru this.
MomOfSydneyRue
Sorry for the typos... Im using my phone and it's hard to type...
deleted_user
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter in January. Everything you are feeling is something we all are feeling. Its okay to think about your daughter at all times. Your her mom your supposed to think of her. You are not a failure. Though at times I too feel like I failed my husband, we must try to remember its not our fault. For some reason this happened to us and it shouldn't of have. Its not fair. TTC again is going to be extremely scary because anything can happen. We will hope and pray for each table other, that we never have to deal with this again and we have a peaceful future. Our babies are constantly with us and when we die, we should be with them. I'm sure life after this one we will be with them, its got to be.
gemsandjules
The only thing that comforts me is the hope of being with my daughters and eventually the rest of my family in eternity. It's hard for people who don't have faith to understand so they just smile and think I'm wishing to die. That's not true. I know God has plans for me here on this earth. I miss my daughters terribly every day but they are also my strength. If I lead my life the way God wants, I will see them when this life ends. Maybe they see me every day and I don't know it. I feel their presence within my heart. If they do see me, I want them to know how much I love them and how committed I am to getting to them in Heaven. The only way I can be their mother is to be a good example of God's love and through my faith and suffering, I can lead others down the right path. Maybe this way, my reward will be with them and Him in paradise, never to be parted again. I am praying for you...
vaishu
Thankyou all for your support in this grief.i feel some hope in life when i read some success stories of mothers conceiving after the stillbirth.
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