Dear Meganann, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet child. I lost mine too, a little girl named Sinza, Jan 2014, at 38 weeks, perfect pregnancy until last Dr's appointment when she had no heartbeat. Its the hardest thing I have ever been through, and still going through. Did you give your baby a name? Would you like to share it with us? A couple of things helped me survive those initial weeks: professional counselling, journaling, crying it out (not surpressing my grief), talking to people who understood what I was going through (an online group of stillbirth moms on babycenter.com. Also I visited and still do visit my daughter's grave and take her flowers whenever i feel the need. You and you family are in my thoughts and prayers. xx
Celian, Sinza's mom.

Yes, we named her Riley Ann. She was so beautiful..It has been so hard. I feel like I'm never going to be normal again. I just made my first counseling appointment for tomorrow and really hope it helps. Thank you for responding!

Hi Megan,
My baby boy, Fynn, was still born on April 28th 2016 so it's been about 3 and 1/2 months. I have said the same thing.. "Will I ever be normal again?". Losing my son was absolutely the hardest thing I've ever had to go through in my entire life. I am so sorry you're going through this. I started going to counseling a few weeks after he was born and it has helped me a lot. I have realized that I will never ever be the same person that I was before, but it is possible to feel not so broken. I think of my son every second of every day. I talk to him and I visit him. I have a curio cabinet on the wall with all of his things from the hospital in it. I know this is a tremendously difficult time for you, but know that you are SO strong and that you WILL come out on the other side. I'm so sorry about your sweet Riley. My heart goes out to you. I hope that counseling can help. <3

I'm so sorry for your loss. My daughter was born still 3 years ago at full term. The exact same thing happened to me. I went into labor but there was no heartbeat. For me it has gotten "easier" in that the grief has become less all-consuming but of course I do still miss her and cry for her. I think of her daily. Her "birthday" just passed. If you want someone to talk to who understands, feel free to send me a personal message. I am wishing you peace, comfort and healing.

I am sorry for the loss of your sweet Riley. Sending love out to you, in tears as I read how your heart is breaking. Hopefully I can find the strength to share my story soon too.

It's been almost 5 months and I'm still struggling. Some days are good but most days are difficult. I can't understand it but I don't really want to talk to my "friends" and have even started to question whether I really have any friends. I don't know if it's because I don't feel like they could ever have any possible clue about what I'm going through???? I'm confused about everything and don't know if I will ever feel like myself again.

I'm sorry meganann. I'm so very sorry.
I'm two years down the line and I hardly have any friends left. It made me question a lot of things and made me realise how little time I have for petty nonsense in other people's lives. It made me harsh I think. I guess my only advise is that just as you don't know how to deal with this, they also don't know, and they're also confused and worried of doing anything that may hurt you further. Patience. Lots and lots of patience. With others but mostly with yourself.

Meganann ..... i feel the same way towards my coworkers/friends. I lost my baby girl in December and went back to work in January, I'm a school teacher. My grade level coworkers didn't asked me how I was Doing. I have great coworkers who come and check up on me and give me a hug. Other grade levels just seem to not even acknowledge that I lost my baby. I have actually lost respect for them. A simple "how are you doing?" Helps a Lot.