... since our beloved John Evan flew up to heaven with his angel wings. It got easier over time, to a point. We have gotten through our loss as much as we will. Of course, we will never forget him and try to visit him at the cemetery every week or two. We plan to get some helium-filled happy birthday balloons tomorrow to release at the cemetery. We have been TTC again for probably 10 months now. No luck yet, despite my wife taking pills or getting fertility shots... whatever the fertility doctor wants to try. Next step is IVF if we can come up with the money. Have also looked into adopting, but that costs even more money. Very worried how my wife will be tomorrow... I don't think it will be a happy day of remembering the joy the pregnancy brought to not just our lives, but the entire family, especially my side of the family as John Evan was going to be he first member of his generation. For those of you that have reached this point in your journey, how did you handle the Angelversary? For those that haven't reached it yet, I'll be glad to share our experience and how the day goes when I have the chance.