Stillbirth Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have been impacted by a stillbirth. A stillbirth occurs when a fetus which has died in the uterus, during labor, or during delivery exits a woman's body. For help and support, share your experiences and learn how others coped. Don't forget that you are not alone.
Hey,
I was going to post on FB but I know some people who probably will take offense...
I find myself not wanting to be around any babies or pregnant women. I feel angry towards them or sometimes I just want to yell to them "your baby could die you know?!" I haven't done that thank goodness but I have had the urge for sure.
Anyone else have these feelings or am I a monster?
Charlotte0987
You're not a monster! I have the same feeling. It's really had for me to be around children as well because it makes me think of my daughter Willow and what could have been. It's been almost a month since I lost my baby girl and I'm still going through all those emotions. Even my OBGYN has me go out the back door so I don't have to see any pregnant ladies or children. So what your going through is completely normal. I'm so sorry you have to go through this pain, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Amesielu01
Thank you for your support. I am thankful to not be alone in my thoughts or feelings xx
maryamlegall
I lost my daughter June 3. I was 24 weeks pregnant with my second child. Your not a bad person. I feel after reading your post I wrote that. Those are my feeling exactly. I feel like when I see pregnant women I look away. I used to think it's such a beautiful thing. Now all I can think is "don't get too comfortable cause you can loose your baby" I understand your thoughts and your pain. Do you have anymore children?
MyAngelMalcolm2017
Your not evil. I lost my precious angel Malcom Isaiah at about 38 and 1/2 weeks, and he was such an active boy in me I had no fear because I new he was going to make. He died this last week on 07/20/2017. I have to stay strong for my other two sons, but if it was not for them I would feel like crawling under a rock and probably just wait to die. Now when I see women with their babies I just think why do they get to have the precious joy and I was robbed from it. Every morning I wake up crying because I just wanted it to be a bad dream and it to be over with. Each morning I wake I realize again he is never coming home, I am never going to witness any of his firsts for anything especially his smile. I will never know his personality and I will never get to watch him grow up. When I see other people with their babies I just wonder why they are so lucky and my baby and I were never going to enjoy that experience together. Why, its not fair. I just want my angel Malcom to be here on earth in my arms where he should be.
GabrielleH
I lost my son at 35 weeks after four years of fertility treatments. After the horror of the delivery room I kept walking around, seeing other babies and automatically picturing them dead. It took some intense treatment to keep from going off the rails. I still can't see pictures of my one year old niece without getting angry. We're not terrible people - we're just trying to recover from a mental and physical trauma.
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