This has happened to me over and over again since I lost my Owen. And even though a year has passed I still cry every time I see their pictures or hear about their babies. Most of my co-workers know what I have been through so they understand the tears. The ones that don't know I don't let them see my reactions because I don't want them to ask my why I am upset.

For me personally I get more emotional over newborn pictures because that is forever how I will remember my son. It also makes me angry that everyone else can have a healthy newborn and I couldn't so it triggers the raw emotions of loss all over again.

My words of advice are to get earphones and listen to the radio on your computer, mp3 player, etc. I have found that when people are having conversations I can't bear to hear that these help me to tune them all out. For me personally it just helps me to not deal with the raw pain everytime a discussion comes up. Also try and avoid their workspaces if you can. If nothing else this will help you to be able to cope through your workdays so you can save all your tears for your drive home. This is how I have been able to get through these situations.

I hope you can find the strength to get through these next few months and know that we are all here to support you and talk with you if you need it.

Lots of hugs to you.

My nephew and his girlfriend are due any day now. I will be Jordan Annaya's godmother. At first when I was asked shortly after Annaya's death I was terrified. Now, I'm looking forward to spoiling my new niece.

Yes, I am longing for my own baby...but I am finding joy in the new lives coming into the world.

To be honest everytime I see a newborn baby in person or in a pic I get happy that it is alive and healthy and then I get angry that my baby isn't..... But I have to remind myself to just keep my faith that God will bless me with healthy and alive children and that my baby boy is in heaven with him....
Trust me it's the hardest time of our lives but we have to get threw it... there is no other choice other than to give up.
God bless, Your in my thoughts

I definitely understand where you are coming from. I was one of three co workers that was pregnant. I have yet to return to work, but i imagine how depressed i will feel looking at the other two mommys, even though i am truly happy for them. Only time and prayer can heal wounds. My prayers to you!

Thanks Jamizsmom, you seem to have a good attitude about life, but it will be a long time before I am overjoyed over others' happiness.

i lost my Scott now 6 weeks ago(6weeks too early stillbirth)...my friend was due 4 days before me and i was terrified how im gonna react..yesterday she had her babyboy and i was crying all day,i wasangry and jelous that she had baby and i didnt..i felt that i never wanna see that baby cos it will upsetme alot..,but today when i went to see her in hospital and held the baby it felt good...i got so much strenght just by holding him...i didnt even cry ...then i realized that is the best way to get used to babies by being around them...nothing will bring my baby Scott back ,but i will have him alwaysin my heart...tomorrow is my due date and i know i will spill some tears...but i believe that by holding that baby today i will deal with it in different way now...

I can relate, my cousin just had a baby and different family members keep asking me if i have seen pictures - i haven't - i have been avoiding them because i just don't think i could handle them right now. I just became comfortable looking at pictures of Emerson without balling. I don't know when it will become easier to deal with others' happiness and i feel guilty for that. So I would say just avoid them as best you can for now - that is what i have been doing.