I do sometimes, but not very often. It makes me sad.

I do the same thing with the microwave and its been 7 months. Four weeks is still really early on in your loss. It sounds normal, it sounds like a habit, since we were pregnant for a long time we adjust and form habits. And then bam one day out of no where we are not pregnant and we have to re adjust all over again.. your not losing your mind :).

My fiance and I did the same thing up until Olivers due date this past Monday 2/13...when we would go to town we would catch ourselves saying "oh man we need to go get.... before Ollie gets here.." its torture. For a few weeks I could still feel his little feet kicking me.

It's been 6 weeks and I still do this too. At night I even feel weird that I'm laying on my stomach and wonder if it could hurt the baby, briefly, before I remember he's gone. Out of habit I adjust the seat belt in the car to be below the belly I still have, the way I did when I wanted to make sure the seat belt didn't go across my pregnant belly. Old habits die hard. It will probably stop after some time.

This happens to me sometimes. Yesterday I was making lunch and I thought, well, I can't have turkey (lunch meat) and then remembered. I just started going back to yoga class, and I have to keep remembering that I don't have to do my pregnancy modifications anymore. I am also only 6 weeks post loss, so I think it is pretty normal. ((hugs))

It doesn't sound crazy. I've had something a bit similar but a bit more conscious. Like all of us, I formed many "pregnant habits" like not drinking alcohol, and physical realities, like not sleeping on my stomach. Now that I'm not pregnany anymore, I can drink and belly-sleep, but I'm not able to get out of the pregnant-mode of not doing those things! I guess this is a little different afterall than the forgetting you're experiencing. Seems like I am having trouble going back to being not pregnant. It just makes me so sad to do the pre-pregnant things that I gave up. From what everyone else is saying sounds like this adjustment is a huge and normal?!

i experienced this until about four weeks after Isabella's death (36w4d). Like my mind and body knew I was supposed to still be pregnant- the next couple of weeks I kept feeling like something was missing, like I knew i was supposed to be caring for her by then and my husband would take turns pacing, like we didn't know what to do with ourselves... that's faded out now too - we're 6w2d post partum... I ache to be holding her or not having held her more when she was delivered but at least it seems like my mind adn body are adjusting to the loss ... hang in there it seems like such a long journey back to some normalcy

You are not losing your mind.. the same thing happened to me. It has faded out the last couple weeks (I am 7 weeks out).

For the first 4-5 weeks I would feel little baby kicks, I would wake up in the middle of the night and have a pregnancy conscious moment to turn to my side if I was on my back, I would catch myself squatting to pick things up as opposed to bending over (because I was so used to having a belly and not wanting to squish her that I would squat instead), and I had to try really hard to break the habit of rubbing my belly. And a few other things we do as pregnant mommies.

It will go away with time, but it is a hard thing to experience. My thoughts are with you. Hugs.

Thank you ladies, I feel a little bit better. I think part of the problem is that I have been torturing myself with "should be's". For example, my husband and I are both teachers. Right now we have a four-day weekend off of school (well, he does; I've been home since Jan. 23) for President's Day. I keep thinking how, under better circumstances, I "should be" appreciative of this time off of school and making final preparations, such as getting Alexander's closet ready. Also, I keep dwelling how I "should be" eagerly anticipating his arrival in 2 1/2 weeks, instead of grieving these 4 weeks since his passing. I hope this goes away once his due date passes. However, since I was scheduled to have a c-section, it's almost like there are two due dates: March 14 (when he was due) and March 7 (when my c-section was most likely going to be scheduled).

Well it has been 5 months for me. From time to time I wake husband up and ask where's the baby or is the baby o.k. or did we have a baby. When I first had him I did it every night now it is rare. It would get better sweety.

I felt the same way for several weeks. I kept thinking that lifting things or eating or drinking the wrong thing would hurt Jeremy. It took a good 6 weeks for the feeling to pass for me.
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Yes, I felt like this too. The worst part was when I would lay my hands on my empty belly thinking he was still in there (because I constantly patted and rubbed my belly to feel him move or just feel his little body in there). It was truly heart breaking. I think that came from the fact that he wasn't there, alive and needing me to care for him. Does that make sense? I didn't see or hear him outside my belly alive and as an expectant mother you expect to be caring for a new born to make the connection that you are no longer pregnant. And in our case we have no newborn baby here.

I had a few panic attacks because of this. I remember one in particular where we had settled in for the evening, I was cooking dinner, my oldest son was watching tv, and my husband in the shower. Everything was good and all of a sudden I had this intense panic feeling. I didn't know why..it seemed to come out of nowhere. After thinking about it I realized I was panicking because the baby wasn't there. It was my maternal instinct to take care of the baby after he was delivered and he wasn't there, and it went against everything I had in me. Once I realized why I was having an anxiety attack it made me bust out in tears. I was like, Really? Panic attacks on top of everything else?

The anxiety has eased up at this point though, it does after time. And the habits stop as well. I'm so sorry youre experiencing all of this as well. Hugs and love. Jessie