I'm so sorry you had to go through this. No one should have to. It's been five months since my daughter was born sleeping. It does get easier. There are still lots of bad days. Just take it day by day one breath at a time! ❤️

I know what your going through. I at least can get out the house. I lost my handsome boy 07/20/2017, he was only ten days early. My house haunts me of what should have been so I try to stay out of it most of the time. I feel like I have to move from the place I live because my little angel was suppose to be here. I hate life for doing this to my baby and me. God knows how cruel this is no one should have to go through this. I do not want to wake up from my sleep because I know my baby is not going to be with me ever again. My heart goes out to you.

I am sorry that you are going through this, no one should have to endure this pain. My son was born sleeping 3 months ago due to a knot in his umbilical cord. I have good days and bad. For the first few weeks I set goals for myself..if one day I could get out of bed and shower I counted that as a goal, if I cooked a healthy meal that was another goal. Each day I tried to accomplish something and it did make me feel better. I just tell myself that I can get through this and I expect to have good and bad days, I tell myself it is normal. Be happy when you feel it, and cry when you need to, talk to someone who will listen, and remember there is always hope!❤

So sorry for your loss ladies - I too lost my baby girl at 40wks during labour. I am so please to hear that it does get easier. Its only been 7 1/2 wks for me. I wrote what I am doing to get though this messy grief in another thread. I hope it helps...............
The first 2 weeks I was in shock and in full grief mode with all the text book symptoms. I don't remember much of those 2 wk. I managed to only do 1 - 2 tasks in a day. But my husband and I got out in nature every day. We found so much comfort in it. We talked openly about our feeling.
Each week has been getting a tiny bit easier.
Wasn't until about wk 5 that I could do things I normally do such as meditation and diary writing. Before I was just in survival mode!
Here is a list I what I have done -
Meditate.
Yoga
Gratitude with my husband every night.
Read our promised that we made to our baby every day.
Open and honest discussions with my husband has provided so much comfort
Counselling
Healing (Reiki)
Share my story with anyone that I feel comfortable sharing with and will listen!
Share photos of my baby girl with everyone I can!
Made a photo album of our baby girl
Made a movie of all the photos of her
We are scattering her ashes into the ocean as the whales migrate past with their calves
I wrote a book about her soul moving on (she is a whale now ;). I will have it illustrated and printed.
We have some art work that is being commissioned in memory of her.
My husband had a ring made in memory of her.
Diary write: write letters to my girl, describe my birth etc etc
Take it really easy and note put too much pressure on myself to do anything.
I haven't returned to work yet
Taken up an old hobbie that used to make me really feel alive (surfing). Husband happy with this!
Being in nature
Listen to music that helps access emotion.
"not now time" try and give myself a break from thinking
Burn a candle every night for her
Cry a lot
Reach out to friend that really understand.
Reaching out to others that have had a still birth
Use 24hr support line for still births
Sleeping tablets!
xxx