Hi ladies, I had a quick question for you. My Angel died in September, 2010 and even though it's been over a year I am still recovering, (though not even close to the pain I was in a year ago), and the need to get pregnant hasn't one away either. I was pregnant once after Sophia, but I miscarried at 6 weeks.

I still want to try, but my BF is so traumatized from these losses that he won't even talk about it. However I told him since the pill makes me so sick from side effects and I still want a kid, that birth control is his issue now. We have been using condoms fairly consistently until last month, and I usually don't say a word about it when he neglects to use one. However, every month when my period shows up it makes me so sad. Every time I get nauseous I worry for weeks that I may be pregnant and then I'm twice as sad when my period comes. The majority of my life has gone back to "normal" and it's not as though I'm obsessing over the loss of Sophia, I just want a kid, and being unable to convince my BF to officially try again, yet having him knowingly not use protection makes me confused and angry that I feel alone in this.

When we've talked about this, he says "if it happens it happens", and I think he wants a baby too but is scared to invest a lot of hope in it just to be devastated like last time. Has anyone else had a hard time convincing their partner to try again or experienced something like what I'm going through?