I am so sorry for your loss. It is devastating. It is heart breaking. Do take care.

I know it must be so hard for you right now. I wish there was something I could say to show you that it does get better. It's been two years since I lost my baby girl at 38 weeks and I never found a reason why she was stillborn either, but over time I have learned to live a good life again. xxx for you and both your beautiful babies, please don't feel guilty, we all know that you would have died to save your baby, you didn't do anything wrong. we're all here for you if you need anything in the world even if you just want to rant and cry. xx

I am so very sorry for your loss and for having a reason to join us here. I lost my daughter, Gemma, at 39 weeks because of an umbilical cord accident. I have two living children. My 5 year old cries and wonders why her baby sister died. We went out to dinner tonight for Valentine's Day and she saw a baby. She said, "I really miss Gemma when I see babies. I just wanted to hold her, kiss her, and love on her." My heart shattered into a million pieces when she said this. As hard as it is, I have to keep trying to help her to believe that her sister is always in her heart and will always be a part of our family as long as we talk about her and pray for her. Still, it's heartbreaking to have to watch our young children have to deal with death at such a young age.

As far as c-sections. Gemma was my third c-section. Give yourself some time to heal physically as each c-section you have makes the muscle weaker. I don't know what caused Gemma's cord to twist so much. My OB said it would be like being hit by lightning twice for it to happen again. That being said, I don't know if I could ever try again at this point. This is a very difficult journey. Give yourself plenty of time to mourn your daughter. Don't worry about your age because 31 is still young.

When you are ready to think about trying again, see if they will do blood clotting tests. It seems as though stillbirth can be linked to blood clots in the placenta or cord. I have tested positive for lupus anticoagulant and they had me on baby aspirins for all of my pregnancies. Truthfully, I don't know if this was the reason for Gemma's death or not. I had a very active baby and she got her cord twisted. I have put it in God's hands and am trying to trust Him. I still miss Gemma terribly and have very bad days but some days hope, happiness, and faith return to my life.

You are in my prayers...

Thankyou all for replying.yesterday i have been to post partum check up.it was like going into different world without the pregnant belly .the doctor talked about my placenta looked lil bit old with small blood pockets.i was not sure what she meant by saying that.she also told she wasnt sure what caused the death of my baby.she never did any ultra scan after 18 week.she advised me to wait for 6 months before trying for another.i was infront of her but my mind was like blank.
can the placenta be checked for any such abnormalities thru US?my life is totally shattered now.no hope in life.iam scared for every silly thing now.i got pregnant just for one month of trying but never dreamt ..that this happiness would end in such a big loss.i dont have any words to express the depth of my sadness.i just dont want to face anyone or talk to anyone.feels like they look at me like a loser with empty hands mourning in my own world.
i am still not ready to speak to my mom ..dont know why i just stare at the sky thinking of my baby girl ...why she left me??was i not right for her?i am thankful for this board to let me express my feelings.

It is so normal to feel like you are in another world. I am so sorry you have to go through this. You will talk to your mom when you are ready. I do so wish you all peace and care. Big hug to you.

I'm very sorry for your loss, just know your not alone I've been through the same thing I lost my baby girl at 35 weeks on September 13, 2011, I've waited at least a month or 2 to get pregnant and it turned out I did get pregnant and 9 months later I had my healthy baby boy

I'm so sorry to hear about you loss. I lost my little angel Tatum May 21, 2012. I went into early labor at 33 weeks and when I went to the hospital to get checked out they told me they couldn't find his heart beat. I was confused, lost, wondering how could this happen to me!

After his birth they told me it looked like the placenta was corroded. What the hell does that mean. Months later at my follow up and many many blood test later they found I have MTFHR a gene mutation that causes elevetated hymocysteine levels that can cause blood clots and early/late term losses. I have recently found out I'm pregnant again, scared that it may happen again but this time i have found a great OB and perinatal Dr and Oncologist who are all keeping a close eye on the baby and my placenta and blood levels. They have since increased my folic acid, b vitamins, and now on blood thinners. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and praying daily for a healthy baby.

I just recommend to talk to a specialist... Get tons of blood work!! Check for factor 5, MTFHR, lupus and your homocysteine levels.

Just remember your not the only one! There are still days I want to trip the pregnant woman I see walking around or ram my grocery cart into woman with babies. Doesn't mean anything is wrong with you :0)

Good luck and I'm sending prayers your way!!

feeling very lonely and broken down...dont know if i will ever become normal again.dont have a shoulder to cry on.want to be strong for my husband..but just could not control....