Let me start by saying I'm so happy I found this support group, I've needed someone to talk to for so long but have no one around. I commend those for sharing your experience and offering advice to those like me. 

Ok, so where do I start? My first girlfriend and I began dating in 2013, and met through mutual friends. She's  always been one of the masculine type, and that didn't bother me considering I dated men my entire life and have 2 children.(32yr) About 1 1/2yr into our relationship my girlfriend proposed and of course I said yes. She was my best friend, my provider, my protector and most of all my kids adored her. This was the best relationship I'd ever been in and I couldn't see myself being with anyone else. Shortly after the proposal, she told me she has gender dysphoria and felt truly like she was a male. Right away I was supportive of her decision and helped in any way possible, all the way down to finding a endo for her. In 2015, I married my best friend it was the happiest time of my life. Later that year we made a few changes, she got of the military, started school and we moved to our hometown. A lot changed. Fast forward to now, my husband has been on T-shots for now 2yrs. Our marriage has done a whole 360, he's no longer understanding, compassionate or loving. We argue constantly and many of times we have gone days living under the same roof, not saying a word to each other. I don't know if this change is due to the hormone imbalance or if our marriage is simply failing. We don't have financial or trust issues just arguements that lead to the house being destroyed, holes in the walls and me being called every disrespectful name in the book. 

Because of this, I resent the transition and long for my best friend to return. I look at him, and don't know who he is at times. The feeling of affection is gone. He's not the person I used to know. I just don't know what to do.