Spouses of Transgender Community Group
Being transgender it's not easy but neither for their spouses. This group is created with the intention of helping and getting to know others that are in. the same situation or to just educate those that are on the other side of the fence and want to know how does it feel or how would it feel to be a spouse of a transgender person. The main objective of this group is...
Time for a quick update (well maybe not so quick). Haven't been around much due to various family things going wrong and taking up my time.
Today he is 5 months on E. The first 3 months were ok, he felt good, relieved and was loving the changes, and being pretty nice all in all. But after that things have started to go downhill. In the last month he's been very down. We seem to have lost our closeness and intimacy (haven't attempted any sexual activity for weeks). He's closed up to me. We are not talking and sharing like we were. There has been a lot of crap going on around us generally, so in a way the whole trans thing has taken a bit of a back seat.
But the strangest thing, the last two days when he was here (he is away most of the time) he has been so inexplicably ANGRY about everything. Like REALLY angry, raging, going apoplectic about every tiny little thing that's gone wrong. He blew up at our son when he accidentally knocked the pumpkin down and broke it (mostly my partner's fault as he had put it somewhere very precarious). He went absolutely mad, called him an idiot, stormed out of the house etc. Where the HELL has this come from? Isn't E meant to stop all that? We had an electrician over yesterday trying to sort a few things out without much luck, and honestly, the way my OH was ranting,swearing and raving the whole time, you'd have thought it was the devil himself in our house, not some poor hapless sparky. I mean, what the hell? He was mean to me too when I tried to talk to him, and more or less told me that the transition means more to him than I do (at least I think that's what he meant). He seemed to be blaming me for not being accepting enough, calling me a bigot etc. He's always been so understanding about my feelings up to now.
And yet, yesterday morning, we were sitting in separate rooms, not talking to each other (again I don't know why, he was just being horrible) and he came into the kitchen and burst into tears. I had to hold him, comfort him etc for ages. Yet he wouldn't tell me why he was crying. I guess THAT is the sort of thing we may expect from E, but not the rages - the big rages were later that same day.
What is going on, I'm beyond confused?
My spouse is also on anti-depressants, however has been able to drastically cut his dose since going on hormones. His doctor team is confident he won't need them forever and his depression came from suppressing all those years.
I have had medications throughout my years that made me feel numb, and one that made me feel worse, so it can vary until the "right" medication is found.