Single Parenting Support Group
Today being raised by a single parent is not uncommon. About three in ten children live in a single parent home. The most common type of single parent home is one with only a mother. However, single father homes are the fastest growing type of family situation; 60% growth in the last ten years alone.
Sending thoughts of support.
It's ok to openly or loudly go through the grieving process and allow your sons to see that you're not ok, because it might help them with their own grief too. I've read that sometimes children hide their grief, mimicking their parents. This can lead to relapses years later.
When my dad died my sister and I who had cared for him during his illness created a fictional world where a character who represents him is alive and can never die (because he's an alien whose father is Death himself). Even though we are bible believing Christians, it's still comforting to imagine or work as am afterlife (like a reincarnation in the future) that we can see. Maybe doing some projects like that focusing heavily on your late husband would help, because although your husband is physically gone, he can't ever fully die because you all love and remember him.
My oldest son was just always angry about what happened. When I started dating the guy who is now my husband, my oldest would not accept him as any kind of father figure. He is now in his early twenties and over the last several years he refers to him as dad.
The support group is a must for the three of you. I became so focused on my boys I didn’t get the help I needed and eventually had a breakdown.
As hard as it may be try to stay in a routine. You can and will get past the grief. But it will take time.
Prayers for you.
Jennifer