my boyfriend (who was 18 while i was only 14) had taken me into a room. we were making out but i really wanted to leave so i pulled away to break it off. Once i did that, he gripped the sides of my waist and pulled me back into him hard enough to leave bruises. I started to get scared of him and began shaking. When he asked me if i was okay, i couldnt telll him the truth that he was frightning me, so instead i said " No! im freaking out! we are going to get caught! come on lets go!" instead of letting me leave he brought me farther into the room, sat down on a chair and pulled me on top of him. His hands began roaming up my shirt and eventually down my pants. his fingers slid into me and i wanted it to stop so bad but i was scared to make things any worse by saying no. The entire time this went on however i did try to make excuses as to why we should stop and leave. none of them worked though... i cant tell if it was sexual assault because i didnt say no and he makes me feel guilty about that day and gets me to think i owe him sex because i claimed he sexually assaulted me when he didnt. I dont know if i do or not... Help!