Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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jimc152 08/30/2013

I was abused by a babysitter when I was 9 or 10. It was more than once, and spanned a few years. Maybe 5 separate occasions. I've spent most of my adult life sabotaging myself with drugs, alcohol, and bad decisions. I have a constant low grade depression, low self esteem and am being screened for bipolar disorder. I have never really dealt with the abuse, although it has been on the fringes of my mind for a long time now. Does anyone have a similar situation that they've dealt with? I'm hoping that by dealing with it somehow it will change things for me. I'm so tired of selling myself short and I'm real tired of my constant bad mood. I've done so many things in life that I should feel good about but don't. In fact, the only time I consistently feel good is when I'm high. I've been in therapy most of my adult life dealing with depression. Is it possible that between being abused and being bipolar I've been barking up the wrong tree? My last round of sabotage cost me two jobs and almost my marriage.

LuckyEmpath 08/30/2013

Hi. I'm so sorry this happened to you. I have found on my path to healing that many of the things I have done or thought somehow goes back to my abuse. I was also sexually abused from 9-12 and didn't have a healthy home life (as many of us didn't). I didn't remember my abuse for 35 years and it still affected me on every level.

I am a firm believer that healing our childhood is at the root of healing ourselves as adults. You mention that you have been in therapy for your depression but you don't mention if you have ever discussed the abuse with your therapist. If you have not I would highly recommend it. But only if you are comfortable with it. If you do decide to begin talking about it you may want to find out if this therapist has worked with sexual abuse survivors. If he/she has not you may want to find one who has.

Healing from childhood sexual abuse is not easy but it sounds like you may be ready for the challenge. The work involved in healing is hard but not any harder than life has been so far. And the reward for all this hard work is a wonderful happy full life. The life you deserve.

I have healed and so have others on this forum. You will find lots of supportive people here so please keep chatting with us.

Take care

deleted_user 09/02/2013

Hey,my first time on here,finding it helpful that i got my support networks when ever and where ever i need it :)..sorry to hear about your experiences,for me i was 5 years old and i am now 30 years old. the main parts of my abuse memories have recently returned,currently i am doing counselling and dealing with alot of my current life's issues that are some what causes of the abuse.i have been diagnosed with bipolar for about a year now and it felt good when i was on a high...it was only the lows that got to me and forced me to seek help.seems to be working so far, my psychiatrist started me on epilim and slowly increased the dosage when needed.
Healing from sexual abuse is not going be easy its going to take time but for now its awsome that you are making your first steps to recovery and wish you all the best :)

deleted_user 09/02/2013

Hey,my first time on here,finding it helpful that i got my support networks when ever and where ever i need it :)..sorry to hear about your experiences,for me i was 5 years old until i was 18.i am now 30 years old. the main parts of my abuse memories have recently returned,currently i am doing counselling and dealing with alot of my current life's issues that are some what causes of the abuse.i have been diagnosed with bipolar for about a year now and it felt good when i was on a high...it was only the lows that got to me and forced me to seek help.seems to be working so far, my psychiatrist started me on epilim and slowly increased the dosage when needed.
Healing from sexual abuse is not going be easy its going to take time but for now its awsome that you are making your first steps to recovery and wish you all the best.

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