Background: My two younger siblings and I were raised in an incredibly abusive household. Unlike me, however, my mother shielded my brother and sister from my father's physical and sexual abuse. They have always existed in their own little clique and even when we were together they would speak and act as though I wasn't even present. Needless to say, I dropped all communication with my father about four years ago, and hit the final straw with my mother about two years ago. My siblings, as always, went with her.

I havent spoken to anyone in over two years and two days ago I get a $200 Amazon.com gift card via email from my mother. I wouldnt have even known had I not been cleaning out my inboxes from all amazon.com emails. It happened to have been at the top of the list. Anyway, this threw my brain for a loop. What the hell? How do I even respond to this? I wish I was in a comfortable enough financial situation to turn down the gift, but Im not. My brain is twitching. I have no idea what to do and all sorts of questions are running through my head. I've spent considerable effort adn money in therapy trying to emotionally detach from this nonsense. Just when i think Im starting to straighten some of it out, THIS happens. So confused.