Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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brea_01
brea_01

So, in a nutshell here is my issue; I had one last amazing date night with my boyfriend before he left and now I've spent the last two days bawling to myself, our dog, and even some of my friends. I haven't been able to find a consouler like the one I saw right after what had happened 9 months ago and I feel as though that would be my biggest help right now. My family is all trying to convince me to move back home because they believe that I am just homesick on top of deal with court soon. Now I wouldn't say I hate that idea completely, I just have enjoyed being able to find myself who I am as a person and I think I bottled it up for too long that the one time I complain the slightest bit about things they (being my family) think that I am going to do something crazy to myself. How do I help them to better understand that I am truly fine? Let them know that it wasn't going to be just them that had their time for separation anxiety? Because what has me upset at this point in time has nothing to do with something they can fix or change for me, it is simply just the fact that I think this process is going very slow and the one time I realize how long it's really been I just was ready to let out some tears. The other half to my nutshell is how do I help myself by filling time while my boyfriend is gone? So far I have tried communicating with my family, close friends from back home, exercising, and writing. But nothing seems to help the days go any faster! It's so hard and there are even times where I can't be alone for more than two hours without crying because I need him there to hold me or I just simply want to have a random conversation with me. I don't have a job at the moment and have applied at many, not a whole lot of money in my pocket to go out and do, and simply just not as many friends that I can call up to have come over ASAP.  If ANYONE can help me figure out an answer to these two questions, there's not enough thankfullness in the world I could give to someone.

maluhia76321
maluhia76321
i am sorry for your trouble, and though new here with my own boat load of how do i, it struck me as i read your words that if you like children, maybe volunteering at the local children hospital would help. i would think being around children will give you plenty of conversation and help you not be alone so reduce crying time too maybe . good luck
brea_01
brea_01
Thank you for that idea, before he left we started volunteering at a homeless shelter and that was much fun, I'm just scared that I might get upset that he won't be there with me. It's a great thing to do and I know I shouldn't get upset for doing something good like that for other people, so maybe I can give it a shot.
Cielo77
Cielo77
thanks brea_01 for sharing. I'm sorry that you are going thru this difficult time. I see that you are taking a lot of he rights steps to be positive and that's is a huge step to bouncing back. I think it is a good idea that you reached out to your family and opened up to them. that, I'm sure, let out a lot of your inner stress, feeling the separation anxiety. You know, I still struggle with it but thankfully, I am handling it much better. It is very healthy to tell your family and friends back home that you are feeling such a way, that it is ok feel that and that you do miss them. However, you have to keep taking care of your life, "finding you". You can still communicate and visit them when possible. Be true to yourself. Yes you are heartbroken, yes, time heals. yes, keeping busy helps too, along with communication to others. The best thing to do is, for me when I feel it coming, I realize that they love me and I love them. It is healthy to find out who you are. That you didn't forget about them and they didn't forget you. Life must go on, in a positive mindset. That is much EASIER SAID THAN DONE.; for me I struggle too. It is a process. It is taking one step at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time. You will find a sense of happiness knowing that you have accomplished something. Believe in yourself. As you are being you, things will fall into place all by themselves. Hope this helps you as much it has me. Hugs and keep going. you are doing a great job. Everything is going to be ok. :)