First of all, I have to express my deepest regret for what you have been through. This is absolutely heartbreaking and unspeakable horror, what you have been through. You did NOT deserve it and despite the lies your family is trying to impress on you, no one wants to be raped. Do not let them gaslight you this way.

Your body didn't do terrible things; your body did what bodies usually do in response to sexual stimulation - it reacted. These are purely physiological events and you really cannot control them, even if you're disgusted with what is happening and you don't want it... Your body is going to have other plans, I'm sorry to say. It's like being very scared by something - say, for example, you're walking across a street and a car seemingly comes from nowhere and nearly hits you, misses you by a foot. Your body will react - your heart will race, you might shake, you might suddenly feel more alert and you might even have the instinct to run in the opposite direction of the car. You didn't want to be scared, but you were, and your system reacted, too.

Unfortunately, it's the same deal in cases of rape. Even if every fiber of your heart and mind and spirit hates what's happening and you don't want it... Your body is going to react. Because it feels good.

Please don't let them use that to convince you that you wanted it or use it to justify what they've done. You did nothing wrong. You didn't want it. You have nothing to be ashamed of.

You're just human.

I really hope you're going to be okay. You're so brave to reach out and ask these questions.

I hope this helps quiet your worries even a little.

Thank you...why does my body respond to sex. Why was my body thinking it felt good? What is good about sex? It hurt...

I'm so sorry to hear of your story. And yes you're brave for speaking up!
I work in an office where we have a sexuality clinic , I cried to one of the workers the other day about my issues I'm dealing with. She mentioned one of the men who abused women had said to her "well she wanted it her nipples were hard and she was wet" then the worker explained to me that your body reacts that way to protect yourself from further harm. If you weren't wet in your area there would be more potential for it to hurt you even more during a rape incident. I thought that was interesting , how our bodies react when in horrible situations to keep up from further harm like that. Everything you have felt is normal , hope this made you feel a bit better xox take care of your lovely self .

Sorry to hear I’m male, and I hope I don’t trigger anyone just being male...

I was molested at a family picnic when I was 5 years old...
the guy who molested me got me aroused... at 5 yrs old, I didn’t understand what was going on. And the creap kept telling me how much I was enjoying it because of the reaction he was causing me..
it felt somewhat good... yet extreamly confusing.
When he was done, I was a walking zombie.. no idea how or what to process.
It took many many years of reading books... ( before the internet) to learn that my body was actually designed to respond in the ways it did...
that it was NOT my fault,

The way your body responded, your abusers knew it would do that, and they knew they could use that to hurt you..just as the creep did towards me..
no matter the lies they told you, nor the lies you’ve blamed yourself for.. they are just that.. LIES! You are one very strong person, who has a good heart. You are not damaged, nor not worth anything.. ( these are the same things I felt for many years and have been working through)
You are a survivor, a powerful person!!

You are welcome here, and we are here to help and support you!

Hang in there!!

Notalone00

Thank you. I still don't quite understand it but thank you. Notalone00 just being male doesn't trigger me. It is horrible what happened to you and I am sorry.

What happened is called nonconcordance, and it's just your brains reaction to something sexually relevant. It has no bearing on whether you enjoy what's happening and it's not something you can control. Kinda like how your eyes can tear up even if you're not sad. And guys can get erections without being aroused, too, but it's more common in women. My ex used that against me too, I didn't know what it meant at the time.

Hi Brave,
everything the others have said is correct our body work against us , Like miki my ex used it against me when he raped and beat me. I feel for you. Many of us have gone through similar events. We are here for you to support you and help you through your crisis. We are here to give support. It's been years since I got away from my ex but sometimes, for now reason I will have a nightmare and wake up crying. No matter whether your man or woman it is not right to have your body violated. We are survivors here. We all became victims of our abusers. But with strength we survive .I am here for you drop me a line any time casey

You asked,"what is good about sex,it hurt" well sex in the confines of a healthy loving relationship does not hurt.It is meant to show love to one another,to give pleasure to one another.Just as medication is used to heal,but used incorrectly and abused can be deadly.Yes your body will respond to simulation,it has to, that's how it's made which explains how a man can be raped,but it is in no way your fault.This is their way of justifying just as if a robber entered your home through an unlocked door.You wouldn't blame the home owner for not locking their door would you? Of course not,your body is there,unlocked,but no one has the right to violate it,No One!