Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I was sexually abused by my older brother when I was 4 and 5 years old. I would remember him coming into my room at night at convincing him to go to his room. I remember how he would try to bribe me witb rewards that never came and convinced me that if I didnt go a long with it my parents would hate me. Nothing was ever really done to address this in my family even though they all knew. Eventually it stopped. I thought I was okay until I started dating. Now every time i want to get even the slightest bit intimate with a guy it feels like it is happening all over again. I start to feel ashamed and that any guy that likes me is in the wrong because thats the way my brother did. I dont know how to overcome this. I have never really talked to anyone about this and I know I probably shouldÂ
Being intimate with someone was/is very difficult for me too as well as most who have experienced sexual abuse. What happens is intimacy becomes a trigger for us and it does feel like we are then plunged back into the abuse. Sadly this is very common. But you can heal and you can go on to have a life without your past continuously haunting you. Please, if you are not already working with a therapist, consider working with one. You can heal but it's unlikely that you will be able to do it on your own. A good therapist, perhaps one who specializes in sexual abuse, will validate how you are feeling and will be able to help you heal. You deserve to heal. ((Hugs))