Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
Hey guys I'm coming to a point with my whole situtation where I just wish I could run away or just didn't exisit, you see my mom wants to take my grand mothers address off of James's ankle braclet tracker so he can check on my aunt when my brothers arnt around to do so. I know I dont see my grandma much considering I have sports and counsling and mentoring every single day and week but there should be no point of taking it off because when I do have time I do visit her. I'm upset because no one understands where im coming from. I do not feel comfortable with the thought of james being that close to me it makes mee feel as if im in danger in some sort of way. People tell me well he hasnt bugged you or tried to do anything to you sense he was arrested and the no contact order was placed, but thats not the point. I feel aslong as he keeps getting things im still going to be suffering. I just wish he would have stayed where he belongs whcich is in jai far away from me. My life keeps getting worse and worse, Ive just had the absolute worst week and its noit getting any better. I wish I was never born so i wouldnt have to be so hurt.
Please don't give up. You still have so much life to live and if you continue with your healing you will be able to live a wonderful happy life. And that is the biggest FU you can give to James. You can live a wonderful life where he doesn't upset you any more. I know the feeling of wanting to give up but I believe you still have a lot of fight left in you. Never give up the fight because you CAN win.
You need to do what makes YOU feel safe. If that means knowing James is farthest away from you then you have that right!! YOU come first!! I didn't learn this until after I had the strength to leave a bad marriage. It took me until age 28 to realize I have the right to put myself first. And I will tell you I can't explain the joy and sense of freedom I felt when I finally put myself first. Don't wait as long as I did. YOU have the personal rights and YOU have the right to put YOU first!! I want you to always remember that
Sorry I can't help much with the abuser still being alive. My grandfather died when I was 18. Part of me felt relieved that he was dead and "the secret" would be buried with him. But that didn't happen. I kept myself so busy with working and going to school that I suppressed stuff until about age 24. I am now 30. I deal with the issue of trying to get control back from a dead person.