First it was not your fault. Life does go on it just makes your life harder to trust other people but you will find love.
((hugs))

my abuser also got away with it,and at first i was angry,angry with everyone,but irealise that i dont need a court of law to find him guilty because I know the truth and so does he,i no longer have to live my life a lie,i can be myself and can achieve whatever i set out too.it does get easier in time and there are people out there that are good ,take care and keep strong

I feel your pain my brothers and uncle abused me when I was young. I'm now 51 it 's the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. My mother was commented to a intitution when I was young my father was an over the road truck driver so my grandmother took care of us. My brothers would come in my room at night. I told my grandmother and she said it was my fault but took me to her house across the the driveway. She told me not to tell my grandfather or father because they would kill my brothers. I thought I would be safe there but my uncle would come in my room I couldn't get away. Even though I leave away from them now I see my brothers when I visit my parents and they act like nothing ever happened. My uncle and gradmother died but the pain is still there. I told on them finally but like you no one believed me. Give your troubles to God he will take care of them. I still have good days and bad days. I look at it like this I'm here for a reason maybe to help someone else or maybe to just talk about it so it doesn't happen to someone else. But you are important and have a voice don't let this bet you. You can be strong and you will be vinacated on the day they die.

I was regularly molested by my dad for about three years (I have holes in my memory, so I don't know how far it went-what I do remember is bad enough that it invades my mind and makes me feel like I'm losing it). He drank too and was mean-I was his target. Anyway, he told a therapist who made him tell my mom. The state removed him from the home for a couple months (this was in the 70's). No one ever explained anything to me and my mom always seemed like she didn't like me after that. My younger brother and sister were favored over me, so I've always felt pretty worthless and try to please everyone, and not getting my needs met in return. I'm in pain all the time and at the same time, can't get completely in touch with my feelings. I'm 42 years old now, have had one small heart attack and I still feel defective. I live in an area where there are no groups and very few therapists, so am having a hard time finding someone to give me the tools I need in my toolbox to heal. I've lost myself though I don't know who I was to begin with. My advice to you is, if you live in an area where therapy-one on one, and group-is available, go! You're young and I don't want you to waste your life feeling this way. I understand, and don't want to see any more of your life taken away from you, so read what you can to help you understand that what you feel is normal and see people who can help you to believe it and can help you heal from it. Wishing you all the health, healing and happiness you deserve Sweetie.

Nothing you say could ever just be rambling. I find it healing to put my thoughts somewhere. It is very hard when no one believes you are validates the truth that you know. I find myself questioning my actions because of the sadness I feel for having to do what I did to protect my child.

Oh, Danni...Please, please don't be so hard on yourself! It was not your fault...you did not deserve this and there is NO way that you are a waste on this earth. Every life...no matter what the get dealt once they get here...is precious. Once we get the ability to start choosing what happens in our lives...that's when things get scary! EVERYONE has choices...choices to heal...choices to hurt...choices to bring peace...choices to tear the world apart...choices to rape and molest and abuse INOCENT people...and choices to walk away from that sort of hurt and find some sort of victory in the fact that we can even walk away...or breathe after something as horrible as abuse...
Know that you are not alone. My abusers have gotten away with what they CHOOSE to do to me for MANY years...but I am still breathing...I wake up to sunny days...I CHOOSE to find something to be thankful I am alive for each day...& trust me...what I am thankful for IS NOT always healthy...(I am a cutter...but that is my CHOICE...and I am alive to do it...it helps me survive...) You CAN do it...CHOOSE to do it!

i am trying...thank you guys for being here. ...its just so hard and i get so numb. my mom not being here for me also is hurting even more. i feel like people are judging me calling me a lier in their minds or behind my back. ...i have three sibblings shes taking away with her.

im embarrassed about the whole situation. i plan on being a social worker and writer in the future to come for me and i wonder how this type of stuff will look like if bought up.

....i've started to cry in weird places lately. i mean i could be all happy and fooling one minute and the down the next when reality kicks back in. im reaching out for councling because i dont want to do something foolish, also because a few friends and family suggested it.

All i want to be is happy and normal...i want to float away into the sky or the sea and just forget everything that is taking place around me. i want my mom to be here for me....

i feel destroyed exspecially bc at 14 when he 1st had intercourse with me i was a virgin. he took away my most precious gift and i feel sick. ...i have friends who had talked about their 1st time and i flash back sadden bc my first time was stolen.