Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
Everytime i close my eyes i see his face everytime i sleep i feel it all over again sometimes i can just be driving down the road and have to pull over because my mind goes back to the past and i feel it all over again and break down. Ive been put on prozac and it doesnt work ive been cutting for 7 years and Im trying to stop but its so hard and they just told me im bipolar. I have lost 4 jobs in the past couple months because there are days I cant get out of bed. Yesterday was his birthday. I heard his name all day long and my family went to see him. It made me sick. Next Sunday is gonna be hell. Having to be in the same room as him having to see him. Then April 6th ill have to see him again for our grandmas 75th birthday... I just cry all day long I spend days in bed my mom has to come remind me to get a shower because i just gve up caring i dont eat I just lay here crying or sleeping. I just wanna die sometimes but im to big of a wimp to actually end it. idk what to do anymore
CrimsonTears
please help me i just dont know what to do anymore im drowning in this pain
07kelz
Ok, I don't know how to help. But I am going through similar if you want to talk pm me. I will listen :)
deleted_user
I don't really have any advice...but I know how you feel, and I'm here if you ever want to talk
CrimsonTears
its fine i just need to deal with it. just need to stop letting it get to me and forget it again
deleted_user
Is there anyway you can not be around him? Can you just right out refuse to go? I was in the same position. I had to be at my grandmas house with him there all the time. He also was at my school and church. If there is anyway you can out right refuse to go I would do it. I know there may not be. Please don't feel like you need to just ignore it. We both know that it will not go away. Just know that one day you will be away from them all. That is what got me through. I still suffer a lot but I know I have to hang on and daily try to heal. Please keep talking and message me if you would like to talk because our situations are very similar. (hugs)
CrimsonTears
i still live under moms roof so it part of my rules plus he lives down the street so if i dont go id be here alone and he can always leave early so id be voulnerable again... plus my grandma is 75 and doesnt know how much more time she has and i wanna spend all the time I can with her cuz she is the only one that has never turned away from me and i mean she didnt chose sides but she has always been there
deleted_user
Well I can only go off of what I started to do. First I had a serious b/f so a lot of times at your age I could make him go to those things with me and my cousin wouldn't touch me. Do you have a friend or adult you could trust? Also is your cousin actually forcing himself in the house to get to you? If that is the case hun you need to just straight up call the police. I am just suggesting I know its easier said then done. And I also just tried to minimize the time as much as possible to be around him. But if he is down the street and doing this to you hun you may have to take a bigger action. Again just a suggestion that is what I would have to do. I know its a horrible situation but please hang on.
CrimsonTears
he doesnt do it now... i dont let him around me when im alone. but it hurts still... and im still scared of him. id have my fiance go with me but im scared to ask him im scared to tell him it was my cousin and i love ryan but he has his family things and school and work and i dont wanna pressure him idk :(
deleted_user
I see what you are saying. But just maybe having a trusted friend or your b/f go with you just for support. Maybe tell them you are unable to explain right now but you really just need support when you go around your family. I know when I brought friends or a b/f along to the family things where he was at he didn't even as much look at me because he knew he couldn't control me and hurt me. And like I said you don't have to tell your bf everything right now. Just tell him you are having some issues with some family members and you just need support. And then maybe try as much as possible to stay away from him as much as you can. Again easier said then done I know. (hug)
CrimsonTears
im not scared hell hurt me again cuz i stay near my grandma its the pain that comes from seeing him the flashbacks and the out of control feeling i get that scares me. If he tried to hurt me hed be dead i have my best friend on speed dial and she said if he ever touches me shed beat the hell out of him or anyone.
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