Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I am simply not good at having a thought just sit and ruminate in my head. I feel I have to act on it. I guess this is one of those occasions.
Often times this group triggers me. I stay because I sometimes learn from the triggers. I don't always respond to posts because I may not believe a post. I have encountered pedophiles and those creeps that just like to read stories and open a dialogue they can masturbate too. I like to take my time getting to know people through the board before adding them as a friend or reaching out.
I understand the whole don't blame the victim thing and always believe the victim but honestly there are times I call BS on that.
I know this is MY issue and I do try my best to keep it off the boards. I'm honestly not sure why I am even posting this. Not sure if I was triggered (probably) or because I haven't learned how to accept emotions without reacting to them...something my tdoc keeps telling me to do ( and annoys the crap out of me)
Yeah...so there it is.
Please don't take offense if I don't accept a friend request right away. It is MY stuff that is keeping you at a distance, not you.
Often times this group triggers me. I stay because I sometimes learn from the triggers. I don't always respond to posts because I may not believe a post. I have encountered pedophiles and those creeps that just like to read stories and open a dialogue they can masturbate too. I like to take my time getting to know people through the board before adding them as a friend or reaching out.
I understand the whole don't blame the victim thing and always believe the victim but honestly there are times I call BS on that.
I know this is MY issue and I do try my best to keep it off the boards. I'm honestly not sure why I am even posting this. Not sure if I was triggered (probably) or because I haven't learned how to accept emotions without reacting to them...something my tdoc keeps telling me to do ( and annoys the crap out of me)
Yeah...so there it is.
Please don't take offense if I don't accept a friend request right away. It is MY stuff that is keeping you at a distance, not you.
I can understand why you have trouble trusting everyone and their story. After all the hurt, anguish and heartache it is difficult to trust everyone who comes along. I get that. Always be true to yourself.
Thank you for sharing.
If it can't be said openly out on the forum for every one to view, it has no purpose.
The little yellow bubble figures are cute though; Tom S. in Tn.
I stay here for the same reason you do, Cecil. For what I learn....although there are times that I just have to get off here for a few days because it brings me down. And I'm down enough these days!!
I'm starting to wonder if I have suppressed memories that I do NOT want to recall. My world crashed and crumbled because it was my daughter. If only it HAD been me and not her that was the victim. If only it had NOT been my own first born son that ruined my world as I knew it.
Yeah, no offense taken. I'm sorry....didn't mean to make this about me. It seems that I get a thought lately and just type what comes to my fingers straight from my mind.
As far as people perving over posts?
I've posted on a different site where I saw that happening...and it's really unpleasant.
BUT.
I guess that I'd rather post and say what's on my mind in the hopes of (a) healing myself and (b) helping other people heal and (c)chipping away at the silencing of victims...
I don't know, honestly...I just have this gut deep need to discuss it and keep looking, looking, looking at it until...I don't know. I don't know what.
I'm waiting for the day when something clicks inside my head and I feel DONE with this crap! But I'm not there yet.
DBT is good for learning to handle emotions and there are workbooks you can learn it out of...I have one at home and *looks guilty* probably ought to be going through it more...
I am just afraid I will be a jerk to someone who doesn't deserve it. I have been trying to lay low. My tdoc has suggested I not spend too much time in my own head and reacting to every little feeling I have.
Gawd....so hard to do though.