Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I really struggled last year in janurary because was the date of where i can rememeber so clear of sexaul abuse/ sexual humilation. My memories was so clear that day and i just couldnt do it. And i ended up forced into hospital for a while. I know janurary is awhile but i feel like its so close and cant stop thinking about it. My memories seem to be getting clearer so i dont know how i wil be able to cope with it this time.
I want to die and if there is a day - it would be that day. Cause i cant stand another year of him winning and he would realise the date and know how much he affected me. And want him to feel bad. Im not nessacarily saying i plan to die then - but i dont exactly know how im gunna stay safe and get through it. I think if i tried to seek help ill look like an attention seeker.
And i know may be thinking if i die then he wins but not realy cause he will feel bad & realise the extent of the affect and may stop him from doing it again to anyone else and that is the only way i will win and make a difference.
Cause i cant report it and i will always feel disgusting
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
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Upon his departure, he remarked, "I am in many people’s pockets; no one will believe you." Have you ever grappled with the silence that follows sexual assault, where the perceived impossibility of being believed necessitates self-censorship?
abusers will never feel bad about anything because if they did feel bad they wouldn't do it.
Christmas is the worst for me. the abuse happened all the time but christmas sticks in my mind the most because of avideo they did that took what felt like days but wasnt and the scene was in front of achristmas tree with all the lights and presents and having to unwrap the presents and them wrapping them back up so Icould do it again and they could do there thing again and Iducking hate christmas and anything to do with it
can't avoid everything that destroys you so find things that distract you
I agree with will.i.am that the abuser will never feel bad and if they did have any remorse or morals they wouldn't abuse kids in the first place. Abusers generally do not have empathy, sympathy or regrets.
If anyone has told you that asking for help to heal these trauma's is you seeking attention, they are wrong. It's my feeling that healing is very difficult without the help of a therapist so please do ask for help. You can heal and you deserve to heal. And when you do heal...that is when you have won.
And i want to die anyway. I will never feel up to doing the actual act so i may aswell have a set date, a reason and a motivation to help me find the corage. I will never heal
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I dont even have any friends and my family dont like me and am a burden to them so have more reasons to why i need to die aswell