You have breath. You have life. ...and clearly you have internet (or access to it).
You have a lot more than nothing. And if you are here then you clearly don't really want to die. Or else, you would not be posting.

My prayers are with you.
Love and Light.

i'm sorry. i know it's hard to want to live when things are so bad... but you're not alone. there is something left for you here in this world, and one day you will find it. hang in there.

Oh hun Im reading you loud and clear. It would of ben nice if the perpetrators had of finished what they started. They destroyed our souls and no matter how much time perpetrators would spend in a prison if they got hejustice they deserved it would never be enough to replace what they took from us. But for some reason we are still around. I think sometimes my only purpose is to let others know that I feel their pain and know what its like to be in a similar position. But we are all important to someone. we might not even know that person but we all make a difference to someone in our lives even if its only for a single second.

Emelia:
You do realize that if you end your life...YOUR ABUSER WINS!!! The best way to conquer your situation is to learn to be as happy as you can in your life and don't let your abuser run it.(I still struggle with this myself,but it is getting better.). Plreas give that some thought.

Tom B. aka Ihman

I'm so sorry. I think you need to get yourself out of there. You need to find safety. If your parents won't help you than find someone who will. Your a great girl and you should not have to live your life in constant fear. If he were not in your life, grant it you would still have a lot to sort out, I think you would feel safer and see more hope in your future. It's not fair that you should be going through this, but someday you can move far away from him and you can achieve anything you want to in life, it will get better.

Good luck, be strong.

The betrayal of your parents hurts....I know. Suicide is not the answer and will only cause more hurt and pain. You need help. Go to your school's counselor, call a rape crisis center, or go to a rape crisis center. Go to http://www.mncasa.org/seek.cfm and it will give you access to help in your area. You are a strong person and you owe it to yourself to get help. You are in no way responsible for what happened to you, but your whole life is ahead of you and it is up to you to make it what you want it to be.

Is there a shelter where you can go and be safe if your parents won't do anything? I wonder if you can prove you were raped, if your parents would be held responsible and lose custody of you.)Unfortunately,you are not 18 yet,and can't live on your own yet.).

Tom B. aka Ihman

it sounds like you are feeling really hopeless and trapped. i know the feeling because i lived with my rapist too and my parents chose him over me as well. you don't have to sit and wait for the next attack though. you clearly have a voice and a will to not want it again. there area contacts to help you. it's not an easy road, but you deserve better and if they are abusing you, they are abusing others.

contact boystown or rainn or look in the front page of your phone book for a crisis shelter. call 911 if you must and tell them you need to get out of your house and need to be connected with a shelter or local resource. they will help you if you don't back down from your truth.

i did this. i now have a good life. healing is not easy, but it beats staying trapped in their sick world. i am thankful now for the stability and joys that God has allowed me and the safety I wake up to every day; but it started by getting away from them with the help of safe people. no one will come rescue you unless you speak out to people with skin on them in your area, just like you did here with your post. print out what you wrote here if you have to and take it with you to a local shelter or police department and just hand it to them if you don't think you can talk....just write on it, "this is me"--they will help you. i know because i've been there.

hopeing for you.

emma

Hi
Im sorry for how you are feeling. Im struggling too but you are in a worse situation because you live under the same roof as the abuser and parents who take his side. Thats awful and I hope you can move away and recover from the abuse.
I hope you have the strength to hang in there and seek some much needed therapy and perhaps report him to the police.
You are an innocent victim and he is a criminal. He deserves to be punished and to be prevented from hurting you again and others too.
I just hope somehow you can get out of this situation and not by dying. I know it feels like the only option sometimes. It can feel so bad and it feels like life isnt worth living, that it wont get better. Who's to say though that if you can move away, find caring and supportive friends or other family or a good therapist, that you cannot heal and find peace and happiness. Sexual abuse is very damaging but there are people out there who have worked through the sturggles and now lead happy lives. I recently read 'Hush' by Nicole Braddock Bromley. She was abused by her stepdad but worked through her issues and with her strong christian faith has mostly healed. I dont think being religious is the only way if you are not religious. I think there are many other ways you can heal. I hear that meditation is great although I have never tried that properly. I have exhausted pretty much all other options though and so I am going to have to really try hard to master meditiation.
all the best

I.myself have tried yoga and have had some success with it. hope this helps.


Tom B. aka Ihman