Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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CrimsonTears 04/29/2008

my brothers adore him they want to be like him and my cousins lil girl his niece has his name as her myspace name and i have to see it everytime i log in and i see him so much and i just cant deal with this... btw im not pregnant and now that i know im not im sad i really did want to be even though i was scarred i REALLY REALLY want a baby i think id be a good mom. other than the whole cutting thing

deleted_user 04/29/2008

I am really confused by your post. Is the man in your post your abuser? Is this the person who got you pregnant?

Please let me know - i would love to be able to help you through what your going through right now.

Janie

CrimsonTears 04/29/2008

hes the abuser not the one that got me pregnant this time he caused me to get pregnant and miscarry in 7th grade and my fiance and i thought we were pregnant but were not :(

deleted_user 04/29/2008

Do these family members who love your abuser so much know what he did to you? If they don't know, do you think they would still idolize him if they knew?

My partner and I thought I was pregnant a year or so ago - the test came back negative and although I was relieved in a way I was also saddened because I do want to have children with him. I know that one day that we will have kids when the time is right. You will one day be an amazing mom, but for now you might need this time to focus on your healing and inner child. Give yourself all the love and gentleness that you would give your child - you deserve that.

CrimsonTears 04/29/2008

they are kids they dont know but my whole family loves and adores him they said i wanted it and im a lier

deleted_user 04/29/2008

I think you should put all your focus into healing yourself before thinking about having a child. Perhaps some counseling would be a good idea, since your family is not there for you with this.

CrimsonTears 04/29/2008

im in counseling twice a week

deleted_user 04/29/2008

Glad you are getting help. Do you ever try writing out your feelings or letting yourself cry it out. Perhaps you would not have to "cut" if you found some other outlet for your pain.

CrimsonTears 04/29/2008

i write poetry but it doesnt always help

deleted_user 04/30/2008

hi crimson i know how you feel, i am a cutter becuase of being molested. i cu talot, daily. i have happy times though where i dont cut. do you? try to focus on those, they often put mymind into a happy kind of flow and im able to feel somewhat alive at times...doing other things. i know its hard not to cut, but remember the moments that you dont okay? huggies hope i made since to you, things are hard for me to put into words, much less voice it. i hope i helped.
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