I really struggle with myself about that question. Did it really happen? I have these very intense emotions about what might have happened. Whenever someone mentions the topic, i go through a myriad of feelings and physical sensations (tingling in my private area, buzzing sound in my ears, electrical vibrations going through my whole body, and i become paralyzed and mute) But i don't remember anything. And in my head i would say, "they're making it up! that never happened to them!" But then i feel guilty for having those thoughts. And i wonder, did it happen to me, and it makes me feel like i am Crazy!!!!! But what i DO remember (i recalled this around the age of 23) is how i disassociated as a young child. I would go inside my body, i would visualize myself as being this stick figure inside this padded wall of protection resembling the Pillsbury dough boy. This happened in the evening while laying in bed. I think i heard a lite tap on my closed bedroom door, and that was my que to go inward. It seemed like my room expanded superlarge, while i became super tiny inside my body. Then i remember waking up a little later after that feeling horrible about myself and hating my life, wondering why God woulndt come and rescue me. I really feel sorry for that little boy. And he is still very confused! I know, i know, just deal with the feelings, blah blah blah, lol its just hard to do.