I am having nightmares now too. I usually wake up from them early in the morning drenched in sweat. I tend to have a shower and go back to bed, and that normally helps. I don't usually have two in a night. I guess it's just part of a messed up routine for me now. Sorry I can't be more helpful.

I had a long stretch of night terrors years ago when I first really started dealing with things. I learned a good solution, it is not an overnight fix BUT it isn't that hard. I made a journal article about it here.

http://www.dailystrength.org/people/4097047/journal/10247921

if either of you want some additional pointers we can discuss it in messages, or ask it here and I will answer if I spot the questions

Prasozin is supposed to be the magic anti- nightmare pill. It's an old blood pressure med, an adrenalin antagonist.

Y'all might want to look in to it?

Hylierandom, is it pregnancy safe?

I have taken Prasozin for about a year for the sole purpose of lessening my nightmares. It has decreased the number of nightmares and flashbacks, I noticed a difference very quickly. If you are able to see a doctor or psychiatrist, I am sure they could tell you if Prazocin would be safe for you to take.

The only side effect of Prazocin that I am aware of is that it makes me lightheaded, but I got used to that quickly; its well worth the side effects since lack of sleep and horrible nightmares have worse side effects.

Elslok:
I do not know about the medication that the other posts are talking about, but I do know a little about dreams.
Our minds tend to "work out" problems unconsciously in our dreams, so at times of stress or during times of recovering our past memories, nightmares are a frequent occurrence with many survivors or trauma. Individuals with PTSD often have difficulty sleeping as they re-live the trauma in various scenarios through their dreams....ie. nightmares.
As you have reported really fearing the loss of your therapy and the support you are getting through it, then this may be triggering the fear that is manifesting in your dreams. We do know that if a person is prone to nightmares or negative themed dreams, then at times of stress these occur more frequently or with more fear involved.
If the medication is something you are willing to look into and it helps, then perhaps this is a good solution for you. But, also consider that your brain may be telling you that it is time to seek out and find more support to replace that which you are losing with your therapy ending.
Have you talked to your therapist about this? I would suspect they would tell you a similar thing - that you need to replace the support you are soon losing.
All my best and do let us know how you are doing and what you find that helps.
Refuse2quit

Thank you Refuse2quit. To be honest, I am wary of medication. I've been put on the wrong medication before now by doctors and also given two different meds that should never be taken together.

I spoke to my therapist about my nightmares, including the detail behind them, my dreams are insanely vivid and detailed. I know I have a lot to work through and I know that I do. I know that by denying myself the chance to confront him and seek punishment for him I might well be causing a lot of this myself...but I really don't ever want to see him again. I know I should confront my mother again and force her to make a choice...but I know if I do I'll lose her forever. I know I should be able to confide in my husband and turn to him for support...but I don't want to scare him off or burden him with my baggage (plus he has problems with me talking about things). I don't feel like I CAN talk to or trust anyone with everything. And I know I should. But I fell like I have no one.

Sorry, not in the best state of mind atm. On the plus side...last night's dream wasn't as horrible.

Please talk to your counselor about getting more counseling. It isn't right for them to leave you with this open can of worms crawling around in your head! If they are trying to be cheap with the services they offer you, you can assure them that you'll end up requiring expensive emergency services if they don't help you to handle this now.

It may be hard for you to be persistent since abuse survivors often don't feel very deserving or entitled. If you need support around asking for what you need and feeling that you deserve it, please ask. It is important not only for you, but for your children. I speak from experience - my own unprocessed traumas had a big impact on my mothering, which I did not realize until 15 years later. Sometimes it's easier to push when it's for our kids ...

I am sorry for your abuse and sorry that you do not have the support of more people in your life. I would make sure you have something and some sort of support. Do you have coping techniques to handle this and you need some sort of support and someone to talk to . I will pray you find this . I keep a journal close by and write and write and write. Find things to replace it. Such as a hobby or the journal on here or someone to talk to. Its amazing how much talking does help. Art therapy. that you also feel safe. But a big change like stopping therepy when it seems like you do not have the support of your mom or can talk to your husband. I hope we can be a help here . I fish oil can help with flashbacks , maybe it can help with nightmares I do not know.. vitamins. there is a natural calm forte by hylands for sleep or nervousness. I take this before and it helped me to stay calm. When we moved. I have fibromyalgia and it helped me be calm. moving to a busyer area. I will pray for your support and transition.

I have nightmares as well. I see my mother running around the yard smothered in flames. Occasionally I will dream that I am the one on fire. I wake up screaming, which is why my wife and I sleep in separate rooms. When I awake I look around the room just to get my bearings. I am usually sweating, my heart is pounding and my fear levels are running at maximum. I slow my breathing down, stretch out my legs and remember that it is only a dream. A dream of events long ago. Events that I have become emotionally UN-ATTACHED to. I know that the dreams are usually the result of stress so I make certain to relax when I lie down. I no longer sweat the dreams. They are a part of my life but they have no control of over it.

How did I get here? I went through Cognitive Behavior Therapy. It was there that I spent a great deal of time writing things out. Probably one of the most difficult things that I have ever had to do. If you choose to do this make certain that you don't do in the evenings. First thing in the morning, if you have the time, write out all that you can remember of your dreams. Then throw the paper away. Remind yourself that they are just dreams. It isn't an overnight cure but it has worked for me.

Thank you all, I know that logically I have nothing to worry about, they cannot hurt me. My counsellor is looking for a general counselling service for me with a creche so that I can have 'me' time when I go. I do worry that it will affect my daughter, but I think I am taking steps to ensure I am a whole person for her.
I think I'll make an appointment with my GP once my exam is done, or speak to my midwife about counselling next week. I can but ask. And hopefully once I've worked through this quagmire of s**t that has been dumped upon me by a few people, I will be able to save the little girl in me still crying out to be rescued.