When you are stuffed full of anger and pain almost anything can make you blow up.

To improve emotional control, try this.
First figure out what it is that you are feeling, and then breathe in, and think "anger in." (for instance) then exhale and as you do say "anger out." Keep on breathing the anger in and out until it is more under control. This is something that takes lots of practice.

You also want to observe yourself having the feeling. This puts a bit of distance in there

Hi Star, I'm sorry that your feeling so much rage. I had a lot of rage when I was a teen. It is so difficult when you don't feel like you have control over your own emotions. It makes you wonder what else you can't control. Nothing can work for everyone but a few things to try are meditation, yoga, therapy, writing about your feelings and what has happened to make you feel so angry, drawing or listening to some music that's calming. The thing that really helped me, but will only work if you are ready for it, was forgiving myself and my abuser. I will never forget but I couldn't carry around the burden of the rage I felt anymore. I never told him that I forgave him but did it in my heart. Hating him was hurting me, not him and allowed him to control my feelings still. It is a much worse fate to not be cared about then to be hated. To no longer care means you don't need to think about them anymore.

I went through a period of being angry and hating the entire world. That's what got me into therapy in the first place. A lot of therapy and support groups helped me through it. Now I have a much more healthy
and controlled anger. There is still that angry little child inside me, but that's where I'm working on healing him.

Thanks for all your replys I will try what you all said but I am nowhere near to forgiving him how can I when I can't forgive myself I wish I wasn't so scared to tell my parents what was going on after my abuser told me not say anything that I wouldnt be beiieved and that I would be taken away. He was right when my dad asked me if his friend was touching me and doing others I wasn't believed so it continued tin I was 15 so I had to worry about him abusing me my greatest fear I suppose is that he would go one step farther.

One more thing that has been upsetting me when I about 10 or 11 I can't remember how old I was my dad would make me wash his back when he was in the bath I know this is wrong but would you call it abuse Im not sure??

The statement about your dad making you wash his back while he is in the bath - YES, it is abuse! Very inappropriate !!

Star it's okay that you aren't ready to forgive and it's perfectly fine if you never are ready. All of us heal in our own ways and in our own time. What is helpful for me may not work for you or vice versa and that's okay too. It helped me because I was ready for it and for me, it was a necessary step so I could release the rage I had been pushing down for so many years.