I can't talk to the authorities i'll be disowned by my family my family believes we protect our own and to accuse will get you shutdown and iI went threw that when I first told :(

sorry my phone sent it a million times

sorry my phone sent it a million times

sorry my phone sent it a million times

sorry my phone sent it a million times

sorry my phone sent it a million times

I can't talk to the authorities i'll be disowned by my family my family believes we protect our own and to accuse will get you shutdown and iI went threw that when I first told :(

Wow! That's a lot of messages! lol I take for all the hurt you're still somewhat afraid to go against your family aren't you? I take it you're also afraid to be on your own without your family as well? And is it just me or do I detect a hint of low self confidence?

I am my families keeper its what i've been told i'm the one that keeps everyone together... I go to school and live on campus but to be completely alone and try to live on my own idk i'm afraid of things not working out, i'm one who doesn't like to be alone. self confidence it comes in it goes but on this topic not at all

You sound so familiar. I knew a girl just like you. She was told she had to take care of her family so of course she couldn't tell about anything that went on. It was also one of those take care of your own families. But the thing is they are not taking care of their own. Not her, nor does it seem you. They may provide shelter and food but there does not seem to be the mental or emotional help you need there.
I understand you're afraid that you wont succeed. My friend had that same worry. But you can succeed. But you are making it. If only a little. Does your school have good career placement services? What are you studying?

My family takes care of me when it comes to school, they don't believe in hugs or saying i love you. its sad and tragic that's why all the kids in the house has so many issues. But that's why i stride to be the opposite i'm a happy person that loves hugs and known for always helping people and smiling,. Its just people don't know or see what i hide because i hide it so well. but left to deal with it at night. I can think about it during the day but keep active enough not to let it get to me but once night falls i breakdown ... I'm studying elementary education

Oh wow, you do sound familiar! And you sound so sweet as well! lol I like happy friendly people. But that's cause they bring me out of my shell.
I know a little of the way you're thinking. I've seen it before! lol But I want you to know that you are strong. And even though it may not seem like it and the future may be scary. And even telling or talking to anybody might be scary. You are still strong enough to do anything you want to. I think you are very sweet and you deserve good things. But you have to realize how much power you do have. The depression and low confidence does tend to make you feel hopeless, but you're not. I know you may be afraid to fight, but you have to with all your might.
I mean seriously, you make me want to rescue you and stuff! lol

Thank You :) and your right i am strong i'm finally starting to do things for me, like coming here and i just started counseling at my school. I know i will take the step to get it all to stop i just have to figure out how to do it with the least amount of damage done to everything else ...

I've been through it all before with my friend and she was in the same place as you. A lot of it is simply finding the courage and knowing that you're not alone. Sometimes you need simply one person to stand there beside you. Remember no matter what is taken from you, it's never actually taken. Certain things can only be given, not taken. Even if it seems like it.
And maybe sometimes in order to protect your family you may have to do things against their wishes. But is best for you. And if you ever need to talk I tend to be on nights. So if you get scured and stuff...:)

Thanks i'll deff keep that in mind :) this ish sucks i just want to be happy and like i am now with non of this bull ugh