Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
A bad thing happened today. It made me really upset. And then I ruined my progress. For no real reason. I didn't even really want to, but I screwed up anyway. It's like I was waiting for an excuse to watch something, anything. I didn't even have to wait very long. I willingly reverted back to a demon I thought I was trying to banish for good. I can't even say I want to get better anymore, because if I did, I wouldn't be making more effort to watch porn than to not watch it. I feel pathetic. I'm worthless. What kind of person claims they're trying to get rid of something and then manufactures an urge just because they had a bad day? I didn't even want to. But I did it anyway. Am I only writing these for attention? That's a pretty sick way to gain it. I hate myself. I can't stand my twisted little brain anymore. I'm an attention whore. There's no point in doing this if I won't even try to get better. I feel like at this point, I'm better off finding a dark hole to live the rest of my life in and being disgusting where nobody else has to know about it. I'm such an idiot. Why do I have to be like this? Better question, why don't I want to change? What kind of loser does stuff like this? Man, I really am just one big pile of crap, aren't I?
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It's National Doughnut Day!Which three would you like? (never mind the calories, fat, or sugar content; just go with what you would pick if none of that mattered and whatever health issues you might have that would keep you from eating one in real life can be cast aside for this exercise as well... have at it!)
You are not alone and most definitely are not a piece of crap or anything like that. I've been where you are.
Don't focus on the streak but be grateful for each day, even if it's just one, where you don't watch porn.
Hope this helps.
Relapses happen! And honestly, if you have a problem with porn, it’s more about how it’s affected your brain chemistry than your character. That part of you that doesn’t even want to do it, but you can’t stop us actually normal. You should watch “Your Brain on Porn” on YouTube! It helped me cause it made things make sense, and that’ll help you not beat yourself up so bad (which I am the monarch of doing). Don’t quit trying to quit ok! No matter how long it takes or how many times, just keep trying. Keep starting over if you have too! It’s ok to fall if you get back up