Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
1st of all,i am so thriller to FINALLY see some support group accepting the reality that Pornography Addiction is a reality & not just a myth to ignore.
This brings me very comfortably to my issue , which is of my Pornography Addiction.I didn't started watching it very early (As many young kids these days start very very early , unfortunately)
I started watching it when i was in my college,so the effects aren't that severe.However,my frequency of watching has been increased over the past several years.
I was very very hurt , depressed , when after many trial and error.i devised a way of commiting my daiy progress to the people i know online , whom i can share my abstinence journey with comfortably.Well,it worked and for the 1st time in my life , i abstained for 29 days (Even though i watched some porn partially but didn't went all the way).So,technkically , you may say , i sorts abstained for 29 days.
Long story short,i am not relapsing very very fast nowadays.That is , from a week time to now.4 or sometimes , 3 and 2 days ... I am so broken inside that i now feel , as if i have wounded my conscious by constantly killing it by watching , UNHOLY,PERVERTED STUFF..
I urge anyone to speak to me.Yes ,just listen to me (that's all i ask) and it will help me fight my addiction , by me telling them about my daily progress.Also,in the process , i will try to help and be a support for those people who might be having any issues & need someone to talk to.
I am avaliable anytime.Just drop me a message ANYTIME and i will be in touch.I assure everybody that i won't judge anyone.I myself am a victim of judgements in my life , so i know how it feels.Just FEEL FREE to speak to me about anything and i will be longing to speak my mind and about my Abstinence progress to you ....
Thank you for reading,
Fahad
This brings me very comfortably to my issue , which is of my Pornography Addiction.I didn't started watching it very early (As many young kids these days start very very early , unfortunately)
I started watching it when i was in my college,so the effects aren't that severe.However,my frequency of watching has been increased over the past several years.
I was very very hurt , depressed , when after many trial and error.i devised a way of commiting my daiy progress to the people i know online , whom i can share my abstinence journey with comfortably.Well,it worked and for the 1st time in my life , i abstained for 29 days (Even though i watched some porn partially but didn't went all the way).So,technkically , you may say , i sorts abstained for 29 days.
Long story short,i am not relapsing very very fast nowadays.That is , from a week time to now.4 or sometimes , 3 and 2 days ... I am so broken inside that i now feel , as if i have wounded my conscious by constantly killing it by watching , UNHOLY,PERVERTED STUFF..
I urge anyone to speak to me.Yes ,just listen to me (that's all i ask) and it will help me fight my addiction , by me telling them about my daily progress.Also,in the process , i will try to help and be a support for those people who might be having any issues & need someone to talk to.
I am avaliable anytime.Just drop me a message ANYTIME and i will be in touch.I assure everybody that i won't judge anyone.I myself am a victim of judgements in my life , so i know how it feels.Just FEEL FREE to speak to me about anything and i will be longing to speak my mind and about my Abstinence progress to you ....
Thank you for reading,
Fahad
Perhaps they could help you find local help, or would be willing to provide counselling via Skype.
Most often , i relapse when i am going through a depression or i am aware of an uncomfortable situation or a test comming the comming day.Just the thought of it, make me go for a short ride of instant gratification.I don't have to do ANYTHING.Even with all the ban and blocks that this country (Doha Qatar) has put online.I seem find a slick way to access Immoral and Evil stuff..
So,anyway you are rite.A reboot isn't the whole purpose but a complete recovery is essential.I sometimes fear , if this issue/habit will destroy my maritial relationship.I am from a country where , such issues are never welcomed for discussion , nor treatement.Even if somenody would be suffering from it or from a similar issue,they would most likely stay quiet then to become humiliated.It's just the culture...
Again,i woud really be sad if i couldn't make my wife happy.I am single at the moment and i just wish , i stop..Somehoe , just stop , even for my Wife's sake , if nothing else.
These conversations have at least , let me speak my mind to you and everyone esle in a long while now.I am really happy.
And looking at your commitment,it makes me wanna try and perhaps see it as a benchmark or possibility of escape from this disease...
Unfortunately , in the country where i am residing currently , an actual physical support group or similar isn't avaliable.So,i have to take all the help that i can get online.
Immediately , my mind told me, GO WATCH PORN...GO... and that's what happens usually
Today however , i somehoe said to my self , No...Just no , please Fahad try not to.Afterall, the sadness for not being able to do gym (Which makes yo motivated & HAPPY ) is present but watching Porn will make it worse later and i would be feeling MORE SAD and depress.So,why not try , not watching..I watched this Thriller Movie "Absentia" , a bit ..Then started reading your comments..And let' see .now i am going out in a park with Mom for a stroll...I want to make it through this night...
Night time is my usual time or committing that habitual crime.. :)
I just recorded this hour , few moments ago..
I want you guys to hear it :) I would realy like that ...Here it is
https://audioboom.com/boos/3059240-hoobastank-dissappear-vocal-cover
You cannot work on that in front of a computer.
You have to force yourself to get out. Take a class, do volunteer work, do anything outdoors that connects you with nature.
If you haven't seen this website you must in order to understand the brain chemistry of this addiction
www.yourbrainonporn.com
also here is the link for SRI for online help
http://www.sexualrecovery.com/pornography-addiction/
You can also do phone and email meetings.
Going through the actual steps is a very healing process for many sex addicts.
Sorry to hear about your relapse, but have you considered getting a recovery diary??
Write down what made you relapse, what helps you stay away from porn etc etc. That way you can keep tabs on yourself and avoid any more slip ups.
Go and buy yourself some books about porn addiction, educate yourself and read other peoples stories too.
If you ever have the urge to watch porn in the future, jump into a cold shower. That is supposed to help big time.
What about your local mosque?? Could you talk your imam there and see what he can offer you?? I am sure you're not the only porn addict around your area, maybe you can see if you can start a support group at your mosque?
My partner is very like you. His computer was his only source of activity too until he forced himself to get rid of it. I noticed many porn addicts use gaming as a replacement of porn. So, have you got any gaming consoles or anything?
If not, why don't you get a little pot and each day into your recovery and succeeded put some money away for a PS4 etc?? And as your reward, buy yourself some new games or a console??
Do they have late night swimming where you're? I hear that is supposed to be good too.
Or go onto eBay and start making those war ship models etc at night??
Go and get some brain teaser games too.
My partner and I stopped having intimate relations for a month and he also stopped masturbating for a month too and even he and I could see the difference it done for him and for his erections!! We didn't know he was suffering some form if acute erectile dysfunction until he stopped mastubating and having sex!!
You will see the difference in yourself too, but you need to change your routines first.
Perhaps , it was no conscious awareness ...I remember , having this depression going to happen in the comming day ...
Also , my use of youtube..It is strange , i always end up watching and clicing something (Which i didn't intended to..It is like , i am watching some game review , or some documenteray or watching a worout video and suddenl , youtube would put SICK videos right besides the videos that i would be watching ..And i end up (Reluctantly) clicking it and eventually , getting engaged in a PMO mode (PORN MASTURABTION ORGASM) ....
Lastly , my time spent near my PC plays a big role too , As i think , this PC of myne may be a trigger for me or my cell , which has a constant element of anonymity ...
Thank you for the comment.It certainly feels good in the midst of abstaining..I know that feeling , i gives you a boost in your motivaions..
The strange thing is , even with all the knowledge about the hazards and the heart break ..the regret...remorse...
I still do it after some days..It is like , i am a junkie who has no control..
I have sometimes this strange thing happeneing with me , when i would suddenly wake up and i would start something ridiculous , but i wouldn't be in control , it is as if , someone is using my body or cntrolling it for like 5 or 6 minutes and later i say to myself , what the hell happened...Why i was doing , whatever i was doing ..