Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I just don't think you should beat yourself up for literally beating yourself up. It just doesn't make sense, it's twice the pain. Breathe a little bit. You are in no way shape or form lying to anybody. If you feel so strongly about this though you may just want to tell someone to help yourself.