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(I apologize in advance this may be a rather long story D:)
So it started on tuesday when my mother picked me up from school, and I started telling her about my day. I noticed she wasn't in a good mood she made no comments and stood silent the whole time. The whole drive was awakward and I knew something wasn't right but chose to push it aside. We picled up my sister from her school and went home.
I was in a good mood all day and couldn't stop smiling making jokes and just laughing, but as usual something had to ruin my good mood. My mother sat down in our living room with my stepdad, sister and I. She started speaking and her voice was cracking. She said, " I was going to do this when Miguel (stepfather) wasn't here but he's family so..." I was beginning to worry I thought she was about to tell us she was ill and it was dangerous, but supprisingly it was worse. she continued saying, "I know you girls know what an anxiety attack is," then looked at me and said, "You should you have had some." I nodded wondering what she was trying to say. She went on, " Jess (me) I have been feeling that something is wrong with you I just didn't know what... until I found this." She held up a suicide note I wrote months ago and I paniked. I didn't know what I was doing, but I just ran and had no clue where I was going. I ran and ran til I couldn't breathe. I was 2 blocks from my house and had nowhere to go so I pulled out my phone and called my cousin. I begged him to pick me up quickly and cpntinued walking til he came for me. My stepfather caught up to me and tried taking me home but I was kicking and screaming so he couldn't. A fee minutes later my cousin came and I jumped in his car meanwhile my stepdad was yelling at him telling him I need help and that if he really cared he would take me home. I just looked at my cousin and cried and begged him to take me to his place. He did thankfully and we had a very long discussion about what had taken place at my home. I haven't been home in 5 days and havent beem to school in 3 days. Tomorrow I go back home, but I'm scared, I dont want them to send me away to "get help." I know my cousin won't mind me staying any longer but I have to go home eventually. I just don't know how to deal with this. any Advice
(I again apologize for the unnecessarly long story I just need help)
So it started on tuesday when my mother picked me up from school, and I started telling her about my day. I noticed she wasn't in a good mood she made no comments and stood silent the whole time. The whole drive was awakward and I knew something wasn't right but chose to push it aside. We picled up my sister from her school and went home.
I was in a good mood all day and couldn't stop smiling making jokes and just laughing, but as usual something had to ruin my good mood. My mother sat down in our living room with my stepdad, sister and I. She started speaking and her voice was cracking. She said, " I was going to do this when Miguel (stepfather) wasn't here but he's family so..." I was beginning to worry I thought she was about to tell us she was ill and it was dangerous, but supprisingly it was worse. she continued saying, "I know you girls know what an anxiety attack is," then looked at me and said, "You should you have had some." I nodded wondering what she was trying to say. She went on, " Jess (me) I have been feeling that something is wrong with you I just didn't know what... until I found this." She held up a suicide note I wrote months ago and I paniked. I didn't know what I was doing, but I just ran and had no clue where I was going. I ran and ran til I couldn't breathe. I was 2 blocks from my house and had nowhere to go so I pulled out my phone and called my cousin. I begged him to pick me up quickly and cpntinued walking til he came for me. My stepfather caught up to me and tried taking me home but I was kicking and screaming so he couldn't. A fee minutes later my cousin came and I jumped in his car meanwhile my stepdad was yelling at him telling him I need help and that if he really cared he would take me home. I just looked at my cousin and cried and begged him to take me to his place. He did thankfully and we had a very long discussion about what had taken place at my home. I haven't been home in 5 days and havent beem to school in 3 days. Tomorrow I go back home, but I'm scared, I dont want them to send me away to "get help." I know my cousin won't mind me staying any longer but I have to go home eventually. I just don't know how to deal with this. any Advice
(I again apologize for the unnecessarly long story I just need help)
AND, if you get taken to the hospital, tell them you ARE NOT suicidal. They aren't allowed to keep you, but they might try since your mother seems to be insane.
@InSuL1nlmP you girlfriend seems to have actual issues that needed to be address by a real hospitalization that has nothing to do with this person. She's not borderline, and its really obvious when someone is because of how they behave. And don't give her lies about how it works. Your girlfriend was on a whole other level.