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Ruined two months of progress

dinorachel
dinorachel
Blah. I can never stop for more than a few months at a time. The only reason I held out for so long this time was that my friend threatened to tell my mom. I've already had my mom find out and I had to lie my way out of her thinking me crazy. It would crush her to find out I've been lying to her for so long. So, I ruined my progress with a mechanical pencil. Used the tip to scratch at my wrists until they were scraped raw. My friend found out and called my house three times trying to tell my mom. Luckily she wasn't home and he hasn't tried since. I'm so mad at myself for ruining my progress. I was proud of it. Before the two months I managed to stop I was cutting every day, like clockwork. It really bugs me that I ruined it with a pencil. It wouldn't be so bad if I'd properly ruined it. But whatever. What's done is done, I guess.

I'm not quite sure what the point of this is...there's not much of one. There's not really a central point either. Sorry.
Manito
Manito
Im so sorry! But dont give up!!!! You can do it! I know you can. I know this is not helpfull at all but maybe you should tell your mom so she can help you. Help you get help...
It might crush her but I think it would be better for you both if she knew.

keep fighting. I know you can stop. But I also think that to stop you have to do something about the reason youre cutting in the first place. That might be a number of reasons but start with one.

Take care

Im here if you ever need to talk.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It's great that you made it as long as you did!! That is an accomplishment for sure. It's hard, but, don't be too hard on yourself because then a lot of times it's harder to get back on track b/c you feel so bad you SHed again. Try to figure out what led you to there and how you might do it differently the next time. take care of yourself.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I once "ruined" my progress with a paper clip. There is no shame in slipping up after a period of no cutting. The fact is, you just went through two entire months without cutting. That's 60 days! 60 times you got up in the morning having to make the choice whether to cut. On the 61st day you cut... which means you messed up on 1.5% of the time. That is awesome! Instead of focusing on that you slipped up and supposedly "ruined" your two-month streak, you actually should celebrate you when that long with out.
tattyhead184
tattyhead184
TheScream has a good point regarding the percentages of it all. I wouldn't have thought of it that way myself. I also agree with Manito that you should say something to your mum. You might be surprised to find she been suspecting something for a long time - call it a mother's intuition. It might be an idea to get support from friends with this (telling your mum) - they seem to care about you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
i know how it is to feel like youve completely trashed your progress. that happened to me a week ago. stress at work got me and i brought my progress to a alarming hault with a letter opener. i called my fience and told her about it and her feelings about it were the same as mine. we couldnt believe that i was doing fine and just snapped under pressure. i know the feeling of not knowing if there is a point. ther is and you just need to keep moving forward and you will be fine. dont give up! im here if you want to talk.
stay strong!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I've been trying to stop cuttin for a long time but as we all know its a really hard thing to do ! I know exactly how you feel in this situation I hadn't cut in 4 months and then last week happend. I had a really rough day and grapped the ol razer blade and made two huge cuts on my leg ! As soon as I did I felt better but even worst the next day. Its such a hard thing to stop cutting but be happy that you have such a great friend who is trying to help you. Cutting is such a secretive thing but it always hepls to have someone you can talk to. and I totally agree with Manito that maybe you should tell you mom whats going on, it might be hard to do but she cares because she loves you and I'm sure she will be there to support you in getting better ! best of luck girlie and know that you can always turn to us if you need to talk !