Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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partial relapse? tw

bowler08
bowler08
so, I had got 9 weeks without hitting or cutting, but I starting hitting again about 3 weeks ago, so it's week 12 without cutting. Part of why I started SI was to fight off thoughts of suicide, which is why I gave in and started hitting again. I think of hitting as my preferred form because it only leaves bruises which go away rather than scars which can prove I've done anything (root problem is perfectionism).

Anyways, I can't get thoughts of bleeding and cutting out of my head for the last few weeks. I want to let it out so I can have my sanity back and focus on day to day tasks for more than 10 minutes..
deleted_user
deleted_user
I know how you are feeling. Please try to stay strong.
deleted_user
deleted_user
run a lovely hot bubble bath, take a deep breath and listen to music that keeps you positive. thats a good way to relax and keep your mind empty
bowler08
bowler08
I avoid time where my mind has nothing to distract it. For example, I started taking extra classes and got another job so that I don't have time to think, but during the less challenging class I can't focus because my mind has a chance to wander away from the task at hand..

I feel like I started SI to take control of my feelings, then I tried to quit so I could take control of my actions, but now I've lost control of my thoughts and there's no way to balance controlling the physical and mental aspects of my life..