Self-Injury Support Group
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I just had one of the two worst breakdowns in my life. There was no way to stop it as it was a mixture of random anxiety, fear and depression that came all of a sudden. My breakdowns tend to start as a result of overthinking. This time I... I (damn, this is embarrasing)... I had an anxiety attack because the phone wouldn't stop ringing. I was almost alone in the house, except for the cleaning/coocking lady. But I get very nervous picking up the phone and talking, and that mere sound was enough to really set me off this time. I didn't understand what was happening to me, maybe I've gone crazy. Lately I've been afraid of going out of the house, talking, seeing my friends, etc.
I started crying, tried to distract myself. Didn't work. Turned to crying histerically till I almost couldn't breath. Got a headache. Heavy breathing. I did cut, a lot (one of them is deep), still nothing... I punched my head again. Almost no effect. Texted my psychologist (have tried before but panicked), I told her I didn't know what else to try and she said: "What about changing your thoughts to happy ones, ones you really like". -_-
I don't even know what thoughts got me in here, it just happened too quickly. If I could I would never explode like this.
I tried anyways... Nothing. I cut and punched myself again. Lied on the floor trying to breath...
I'm a little better now, still hidden in the bathroom till there is no sign in my face that I was crying.
I haven't gone to my psychologist's for a couple months now, because I still can't get my parents to go to the appointment where they are gonna be told I need a psychiatrist.
But I need at least the help I was already receiving...
I really didn't know if I was going to be able to control myself.
I'm losing my mind at incredible speeds
What do you guys do in the middle of a random crisis? I don't know any help lines in this area and again the phone is terrifying for me, can't drive myself to a hospital, I was alone and I CAN'T tell my parents. I don't trust them that much. I rather stay like this than have them knowing, absolutely not an option (sorry, rant).
I started crying, tried to distract myself. Didn't work. Turned to crying histerically till I almost couldn't breath. Got a headache. Heavy breathing. I did cut, a lot (one of them is deep), still nothing... I punched my head again. Almost no effect. Texted my psychologist (have tried before but panicked), I told her I didn't know what else to try and she said: "What about changing your thoughts to happy ones, ones you really like". -_-
I don't even know what thoughts got me in here, it just happened too quickly. If I could I would never explode like this.
I tried anyways... Nothing. I cut and punched myself again. Lied on the floor trying to breath...
I'm a little better now, still hidden in the bathroom till there is no sign in my face that I was crying.
I haven't gone to my psychologist's for a couple months now, because I still can't get my parents to go to the appointment where they are gonna be told I need a psychiatrist.
But I need at least the help I was already receiving...
I really didn't know if I was going to be able to control myself.
I'm losing my mind at incredible speeds
What do you guys do in the middle of a random crisis? I don't know any help lines in this area and again the phone is terrifying for me, can't drive myself to a hospital, I was alone and I CAN'T tell my parents. I don't trust them that much. I rather stay like this than have them knowing, absolutely not an option (sorry, rant).
Also, why do your parents have to be told that you need a psychiatrist? Where you live, aren't you now considered an adult? I think you can keep everything private. They don't have to know.
And, even if they did know, there is no shame in it. Tons of people have psychiatrists. It's not a big deal.