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My best friend was a complete jerk to me today and that NEVER happens. He has been there through all my problems and has helped me so much. He has kept me from suicide/ talked me out of suicide on more that one occasion. He has been my #1 support system through trying to quite cutting and is the ONLY person in this world I can trust.
For the past few months I have noticed him blowing me off when he is around his other friends. This is only at school and we normally spend most of our time together outside of school. I didn't want to read into this to much (Mainly I didn't want it to be true) so I wrote it off as me being over visualent and him being socially awkward.
Today I was just at the end of my ropes and trying to make plans with him for after musical practice while he was sitting with a few of his other friends. He completely blew me off and acted as if he barley knew me. I was so thoroughly hurt and just when back to what I was doing.
After I left practice I texted him and told him that it annoyed me that he blew me off (Not mentioning that I had noticed him doing it in the past and only when his other friends are around) all he said that he was sorry. I know Brady and I know that in this instance he was not truly sorry. I told him that I knew he wasn't. As this conversation continued all he would say was "I'm Sorry" and "I love you" as if just trying to get me to shut up and get off his back. I did end up confronting him about the way he is at school with his other friends. I asked him why he was embarrassed to have me as a friend (expecting him to say that he wasn't and that that isn't what is going on at all) instead he said idk. What I didn't want to be true is and I can't believe him.
He is pretty much the only thing I have left but I think I might just have to leave him alone now. I really don't want this at all but I also don't want a best friend that I can't hang out with at school. If we aren't friends any more I am afraid of what will become of me. He is my only reason to live and my life and him are the only reasons I have not to start cutting again. I am terrified of going off the deep end again.
Sorry that this isn't really all that much about SI but I have no one else to turn to at this point.
For the past few months I have noticed him blowing me off when he is around his other friends. This is only at school and we normally spend most of our time together outside of school. I didn't want to read into this to much (Mainly I didn't want it to be true) so I wrote it off as me being over visualent and him being socially awkward.
Today I was just at the end of my ropes and trying to make plans with him for after musical practice while he was sitting with a few of his other friends. He completely blew me off and acted as if he barley knew me. I was so thoroughly hurt and just when back to what I was doing.
After I left practice I texted him and told him that it annoyed me that he blew me off (Not mentioning that I had noticed him doing it in the past and only when his other friends are around) all he said that he was sorry. I know Brady and I know that in this instance he was not truly sorry. I told him that I knew he wasn't. As this conversation continued all he would say was "I'm Sorry" and "I love you" as if just trying to get me to shut up and get off his back. I did end up confronting him about the way he is at school with his other friends. I asked him why he was embarrassed to have me as a friend (expecting him to say that he wasn't and that that isn't what is going on at all) instead he said idk. What I didn't want to be true is and I can't believe him.
He is pretty much the only thing I have left but I think I might just have to leave him alone now. I really don't want this at all but I also don't want a best friend that I can't hang out with at school. If we aren't friends any more I am afraid of what will become of me. He is my only reason to live and my life and him are the only reasons I have not to start cutting again. I am terrified of going off the deep end again.
Sorry that this isn't really all that much about SI but I have no one else to turn to at this point.
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girl i am so sorry.....you dont deserve to be blown off like that.....if he is willing to hurt you he isnt your true friend (im sorry i had to say that) luckly you have people on here to talk to who have the same problem(me ) but we are here for you now. if you need anything message me ok i dont want you to feel like there is no one who cares.
KnivesAndPens
I can't even listen to the music that usually makes me feel better because it all reminds me of him and the way he was always there for me. Having slight thoughts of suicide which I know is ridicules. Please don't say that he isn't my friend or he isn't worth it or he doesn't deserve me because He has helped me in ways I can't even express if anything I don't deserve him.
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