Thank you for reaching out and sharing. Writing on this forum and knowing there are people who understand your struggles really helps. You are not alone. But what is important is don't allow yourself to listen to the lies. You are important, you do matter, life is not hopeless. All those things are the depression talking.

Have you ever seen a doctor for depression? Depression is a real disease that causes the chemicals in our brain to go off balance. Medication can help bring that balance, then through counseling you can learn coping skills and find the root to the depression. If you have not seen a doctor yet for what you are feeling, start there. Also try hard not to be judgemental of yourself, just know that you are feeling bad, but it is only temporary and with the right help you will feel better.

Two coping skills I have learned to help me with my anxiety and depression are the 557 breathing techniques and the gratitude journal. . The 557 breathing technique is take 5 deep breaths in while thinking good thoughts about yourself like I matter, I am special, I am strong and then hold the breaths for the count of 7 focusing on those words about yourself, then let out the breath slowly for 5 seconds letting go of any anxious, self-defeating, unhealthy thought. I do this one to three times a sitting. The gratitude journal is writing down something good every morning and night something that went well in the day, or something I appreciate about myself. Taking our focus off of the anxiety and depression and focusing on positive uplifting things really helps. What you think is what you believe. So thinking uplifting things you believe those things but the reverse is true - thinking negative self-defeating things, you will believe those. I will be praying for you. Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat. Hugs and God Bless

How are things going? I have been praying for you. Hugs

@caring2018, hi, thank you. I've been okay. Hope you're well.