I understand what you mean. It hurts more because you feel like your letting them down, even though they have no understanding about a person doing that.
I have small god children and they where with me alot and I cut and would hide it from them. However there did come a time where one did notice them he was 4 years old and asked what happened. I lied and said oh it was a cat. it just went crazy. He took that story and went with it thinking it was funny.
I then was even more protective of the cuts and where they where and hiding them better.
Even though they dont understand or know, I will tell you that person will remember when they are older and hear about cutting they may link it or they may do it later. there have been studies of it I dont really like to think that its true for all.. But my aunt was a cutter and I saw them when I was young and when I was 10 I started cutting as I had the idea... but I really dont think that always happens often.
I know that it hurts and far more then cutting. Do you want to stop cutting???
Remember the more you do it the more scars you will have and the other day I was at a friends who I have been friends with for 9 years, and have been around when I was a cutter and had to cover to make sure her kids never saw that. They never saw the cuts but the other day her daughter who is now 10 yrs old noticed the scars on my arm and asked why are there so many scars on your arm? I could only think of dont you have any scars? she then started showing me all hers, and I changed the topic I was really hurt that she noticed, and ashamed.
I know how you feel about it and little kids are sponges and what we dont think they notice they do and it shows later. Not something to worry about but just keep in mind if your going to keep cutting that you will need to hide them better or pick another area to cut, or if you are wanting to stop cutting then reach out for help and the support which can be found on here too, to help you through to stop cutting. .

@butterfly that's exactly it, you.understand how I feel. I was thinking about my brother when he saw, what if he remembers when he's older and he realizes what it means, I don't want him to remember him like that. And I don't want to get better I thought I did, I started going back to therapy because I wanted to, but they want me sto stop cutting, and I don't want to. I've gotten so used to it, its the only thing I know now.

@MissSunshyne I never told my family, my school counselour did after she found out when I was having a breakdown at school. They had to tell my mom because they were worried, and then my mom went to tell the whole family because she needed help.understanding what was going on.I have the same problem with it warming up, after the thing at the beach I don't ever wanna take my sweater off ever again.

I've gotten smarter, and started cutting in places where people can't see. Last year, though, I was clumsy. I would leave the house carelessly with fresh cuts on my arms, and making excuses was hard. I have a friend who was smart enough to know. She's the only one who has ever found out. But it just feels like they're shaming you when they find out, like they judge you because you're weak.

I always cut on my thighs. I wear long shorts if I wear shorts at all because it hides them. I was babysitting last weekend and my shorts pulled up when I was putting Perry to bed. He saw them and asked what they were and I said nothing but he said that he had seen them on his sisters friend before and she said that the devil put them there because he wanted her to hurt for all the bad things she had done. I was about to walk out of the room when he asked if I would stay while be said his prays. I said yes I would. When he was praying he said dear god please let the devil leave tori alone I love her to much for her to hurt and I know she doesn't deserve to hurt she I'd the best babysitter I have ever had. Please don't let him take her away from me. This boy is nine years old and is wise beyond his years. I left the room crying. Everytime I start to cut I think of perry and tell myself that I can't hurt him by hurting myself. It's amazing how someone so much younger than me can have that effect on me. I'm going to stay strong for him.