I know i shouldn't but sometimes it's all too much to handle and i end up self harming. I usually go for my left wrist because i have more strength in my right hand to do more damage, but it's been really hot in Australia lately because i have no idea (it's autumn it shouldn't be 28 degrees) and so it's hard to cover my wrist. I get really self conscious. My right wrist isn't that bad because there's only one or two light cuts, but my left is hard to hide sometimes. I can't help but cut there because i don't know where else to cut, to let it out. I know I shouldn't, especially because when it sinks in what i've done it makes me cry more but in the moment, even if it's only for 30 seconds, i feel better. I don't really know how to stop...
I stopped for a while, but lately even if i can't find anything sharp i use my nails and although my nails aren't that long, they still make me bleed. It's like i can't escape anymore.
It just annoys me that parents warn you about the dangers out there in the world, but they never warn you about yourself...y'know?
I could quite possibly, be the end of me.