Self-Injury Support Group
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I've been crying most of the morning...
Last night my eating problem came to a head when I'd made my mind up to try and eat more. I said to myself "I'm going to allow myself to eat normally"...it didn't last. By saying that to myself I felt a complete failure, weak and stupid.
Last night after eating a bit of veg I had severe suical thoughts and self-harmed. I was hyserical and it scared me.
I talked to my Mum last night and told her everything about my thoughts about eating. I finally plucked up the courage to admit I have a serious problem and yet at 6 stone 4 lbs (88 lbs) and with a BMI of 16.6 I still want to lose weight. We've found out that there is a specialized eating disorder hospital (cygnet hospital) which accepts NHS patients and I made the decision to let my Mum phone my pdoc and we would go and see him and ask for a referral. He has told us he would fit us in any time in an emergancy.
I woke up this morning and my Mum phoned my pdoc...now bare in mind I have done EVERYTHING he's always asked. The only this I have refused to do which was last week, was double the Mirtazapine (for obvious reasons).
My Mum explained that we needed to see him as an emergancy, I'm getting suicidal thoughts and last night self-harmed. My Mum said, she now has a serious problem with eating.
His exact word were..."I know that, but she has a problem with her attitude" he then followed it with "I can see you on Monday or I'll see you and have a frank discussion with her today and you can pick up the pieces over the weekend, because I don't think I can carry on being her doctor for much longer".
Needless to say I'm now just as upset as I was last night. I have no idea what to do next and my appointment isn't until 5 o'clock so I have to wait all day to be told this face to face. I just want to give up on everything right now. I'm going to be at one of my lowest points and with no therapist.
x-Bliss-x
Last night my eating problem came to a head when I'd made my mind up to try and eat more. I said to myself "I'm going to allow myself to eat normally"...it didn't last. By saying that to myself I felt a complete failure, weak and stupid.
Last night after eating a bit of veg I had severe suical thoughts and self-harmed. I was hyserical and it scared me.
I talked to my Mum last night and told her everything about my thoughts about eating. I finally plucked up the courage to admit I have a serious problem and yet at 6 stone 4 lbs (88 lbs) and with a BMI of 16.6 I still want to lose weight. We've found out that there is a specialized eating disorder hospital (cygnet hospital) which accepts NHS patients and I made the decision to let my Mum phone my pdoc and we would go and see him and ask for a referral. He has told us he would fit us in any time in an emergancy.
I woke up this morning and my Mum phoned my pdoc...now bare in mind I have done EVERYTHING he's always asked. The only this I have refused to do which was last week, was double the Mirtazapine (for obvious reasons).
My Mum explained that we needed to see him as an emergancy, I'm getting suicidal thoughts and last night self-harmed. My Mum said, she now has a serious problem with eating.
His exact word were..."I know that, but she has a problem with her attitude" he then followed it with "I can see you on Monday or I'll see you and have a frank discussion with her today and you can pick up the pieces over the weekend, because I don't think I can carry on being her doctor for much longer".
Needless to say I'm now just as upset as I was last night. I have no idea what to do next and my appointment isn't until 5 o'clock so I have to wait all day to be told this face to face. I just want to give up on everything right now. I'm going to be at one of my lowest points and with no therapist.
x-Bliss-x
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
i kinda know how u feel. i dnt have an eating prob but i ave a smokin prob! an i told myself i was gonna giv up. but that night i couldnt take the cravings an i had a fag i then felt crap i felt i failed i couldnt even make it through one day!!! anyway the next morn i woke up an thought no i gonna do this made it a week an failed again!! i also tryin to giv up my SI an had been bout 2 weeks w/out it but last nite i lost it i jus couldnt take it anymore an i grabbed then blade an that was it now i feel twice as bad coz i cant stay off the fags or the SI so ur not alone in ur feelins oh an ur doc has no rite to say that he's jus bein a dick for no reason!!
here if u wanna jus chat but plz try not to SI again for me xXx
can you perhaps change doctors?
its good your mum is supporting you and i am here to talk anytime xxx
hugs for you stay strong xxxxxxx
We went for 5 o'clock and we talked about what had happened the night before. I told him everything and he was so understanding. He agreed that the best thing to do now is to refer me to the local Eating Disorder unit in my area. Luckily it's actually one of their sister hospitals which comes under the Cygnet Hospitals, so at least I know their care is very good as I was in their care under the psychiatric hospital before. He's going to try and contact my GP on Monday but he's away for three weeks so he's going to see if anyone else in the surgery can help. He's also going to contact the ED unit and see what their bed availability is like. As I'll be going in under the NHS I might have to wait till April as we're at the end of the financial year and so are less likely to take on more patients. In April they get another lump sum and so I'll have more chance. I'll just have to wait and see. For now all I can do is try and eat enough to keep me from being hospitalized in a main hospital.
x-Bliss-x