Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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Jessielull 04/01/2013

Sometimes in the middle of the night I can't sleep and all kinds of thoughts run through my head. It always seems to be the same just thinking of random stuff and I finally decide to write in my journal to get things off my mind. Whenever I write I get emotional and have mental breakdowns always hurting myself. I cut and try telling myself that its okay even though its not. I tell myself if I cut I'll feel better and nothing will matter anymore as if its that simple. I feel like I'm on the verge of insanity trying to convince myself that theres nothing wrong with me. I don't know what to do sometimes. No one knows I harm myself because I'm scared that they will judge me for it. I don't want people to treat me different because what I do. I want help but I don't know how to get it. I don't know what I have to do with myself anymore. Sometimes it feels easier to just give up on everything.

BlueLilly1 04/01/2013

I'm nodding...to everything you're saying!!!
I'm the same!! It could be like 1am and im lying there and sometimes i jsut have to roll over grab my journal chuck on a small light and start writing. Please don't give up on everything, i cut too and i feel like that all the time but if you look at it from a whole new light we shouldn't let it beat us. I don't know what is going on in your life to make you feel the way you do, and i'm sorry it does make you feel like that but hang in there. I'm the same, my best friend saw my wrists once and wanted to tell someone btu i made her promise not to and it was so hard because she did judge me. That was 3 years ago. Just yesterday it just slipped to my best friend that i cut and he was so supportive that for once i actually felt better. Although i didn't plan on telling him - like ever - i think it might make you feel better to tell someone you trust really well. It's not easy and i don't blame you if you can't tell someone, but trust me having said it rather than have it on paper for you and only you to keep bottled up - is a big relief xx Goodluck and feel better, im always here if you ever want to talk :)

deleted_user 04/02/2013

I'm like you, Jessie, in that I NEVER wanted anyone to know. I was so ashamed and didn't really know how to explain to anyone else what was happening to me. I lived in solitude with my pain for 8 years before reaching out, and about six years ago, I finally reached out and told a FEW ppl. But I've felt the best recently when I just talk to ppl openly about what's happening in my head. More people get it than you'd believe. Even if they don't SI they can still sympathize. I know not eveyone is surrounded by supporting peeps but this website is living proof that you are NOT crazy and that you obviously WANT to feel better. You just need help, like the rest of us. It's okay.

Jessielull 04/02/2013

thank you both. you guys are really helpful and I appreciate what you said. I have tried talking to people before but no one has bothered to ask why I do it. I told my bestfriend and now she ignores me and talks to me differently. My mother found out but didn't even ask why I was doing it she just said sto stop before other people fin out. I feel like no one cares sometimes

deleted_user 04/03/2013

I care! I may not even know you but I care, truly. I used to scratch myself until i would bleed because "it wasn't cutting" so it seemed better but it wasn't. My best friend in the entire world has been cutting herself for a long time now and I was just able to convince her to stop. I found all mu strength in God. He has, and will always be there for me and I can never in my life thank him enough. I just hope you know He loves you to and I care about you and how you treat yourself :) Sometimes people act weird if you talk about it because I honestly feel like cutting is hard to understand unless you've been there yourself! But I will pray for ya and wish you only the best! Just remember that you are beautiful and that things will look up :) May God bless you!

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