your not alone hon, i relapsed sgain jsut the other night.
ive been locked up and i feel you, its hell in there... just cant do it.
you know what you did was wrong, maybe try something to take your mind off it when you want to cut?
dont tell anyone just yet. i know its wrong, but if you do it again tell them... if not... play it day by day, minute by minute each minute you dont cut is a victory :)

Secret is right. each minute you dont cut is a really large victory.

I can't say I feel your pain, I've not been locked up for cutting - prolly due to my mother who thinks i need no help, but who am i to say.

but like you i just recently relapsed. hadnt cut since around march n found out some bad news and i lost it last week.

I found this post a while back, maybe you can give some of the things a try.

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Self-Injury/forum/1181721-154-things-do-intead/lastpage

thanks... somethin is really wrong with me tho i cant even have a normal friendship i get really clingy when people treat me nice and wanna spend every possible moment with them until they get annoyed or freakoutn leave me and i let people walk all over me i do anything i can to make them want me around including stealing which got me put in jail i give them money when they need it even if it means i dont eat because of it and in the end they still leave. i cant keep a job because im unstable i cry all the time its just not fair i wanna be normal gave a normal friendship but dont know how. ive attempted suicide 3 times this year and im scared next time itll work. everyone says turn to god but i blame him for not protectin me. idk what to do anymore

I know what you mean about god. I blame him too. for not protecting from the things that made me start cutting, and not protecting me from relapsing.

i just wish i had money for a new tattoo they make me feel better...

Crimson, my goodness. You and I are so alike... I used to be SUPER clingy. All my friends used to get burnt out by my clingyness and I lost them all. And I'm addicted to tattoos as a replacement for injurying... when I have the money for it lol I did this thing called SAFE once, two weeks in patient/two weeks out patient. Ultimately, I got booted out for injuring after they sent me home to my asshole father, but that's just details. I remember very distinctly how confined and exposed and vulnerable I felt when I was there. I didn't like it one bit. Their group session leaders allowed some of the patients to literally lash out at others during therapy. If you left a group, you had to fill out a paper why... I can't tell you how many groups I left because I wanted to punch a bitch in the mouth for running it like an asshole lol Relapse is something that is almost always inevitable when you're trying to get over something. Just think of how long you went between doing it, and realize that you do have the power in you to do it. It's hard as hell, and I feel like a hypocrite for saying that, because I relapsed a few months ago and haven't even tried to stop since. But, you can do it. If you really want to quit, you will.

thanks life feels so hopeless n pointless i actually got told by a dr i had to be lying about the pill i took cuz i should be dead n there is no explanation to me living its crazy bit i wasnt lying people say it was god savin me because he has a plan but i wish he would forget the plan n let me go