I haven't cut in 4 days, and it depends on whether I do anything today if it will be 5. But its always been 4 days until I relapse and I haven't gotten past 4 days since I started again. I don't know if I want to cut or not, I feel like I'm nothing if I dont cut, like my depression means nothing to people or myself if I don't hurt myself. I feel like no one will take me seriously unless I do something, which in my head I know it's true but it's also people don't act like what I'm going through matters, mainly my friends and I just lean on them for some much because my parents don't know anything and I stopped telling any other adults because one told my mom and I knew they were going to but now I feel like I can't trust her, and this turned into a lot more than about relapsing oops.