Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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Incognita 09/22/2012

I'm at the point where I have no idea how to communicate effectively anymore with someone in my life, and the only way I am thinking of how to communicate what I am feeling is to cut. By making my emotions a physical reality, I won't get judged or chastised for not "showing my emotions" anymore.

I can have a hard time opening up about things, and I try really hard to do so but I just seem to fuck things up repeatedly when I try. Or people aren't satisfied with what I give so it just makes me feel even worse.

I've thought about getting a red pen, but I feel that would be too simple. I need something real if I'm going to do it. I prefer scratching to cuts, so maybe I'll just scratch some in or use an eraser to burn some on.

Sorry for ranting..

deleted_user 09/22/2012

you JUST shared how you were feeling and we heard you... and you did that by using words. thank you :)

sending you hugs

deleted_user 09/22/2012

Hey, maybe you could write out whatever it is that you need to communicate. You could just write for yourself too if you wanted. I write a lot and it help that anxious and dysphoric feeling. Sometimes if I want to talk and I can't, I'll write it down. For some reason it's easier for me that way.

Incognita 09/22/2012

Thank you NW. I always appreciate your input. It's easier to try and talk here because I know that she won't see what I write or lash out at me for it (my BDD post on SG caused a nightmare).

LoveLittleLucy, I actually have been trying to write a letter to give to her when she gets home in a little bit but it's hard trying to clear my thoughts. I just feel like ALL my communication skills have gone to shit lately....

Sometimes I ask my self why in the hell am I on a damn "emotional enlightenment" path.... I wish I could just solely exist on logic and be done with emotions...

Incognita 09/23/2012

I did write a letter to give to her but am going to wait to give it. Her mood improved since our argument earlier today before she went to work so I don't wanna make it worse again. So in just floating in space ATM.

My urge to SI is smaller now but still there.

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