It happened again. Raped again. I know now I cannot trust men. They only hurt me. I am done trying, done being strong, I just cant take it anymore. Ive taken too many shots to remain standing. Worst of all I am alone. I have no loving arms to run to, no crying shoulder to lean on, no strong arms to guard me as I rest. Ive been awake since yesterday afternoon beause I fear I cannot sleep. He will come back if I sleep. Im broken, and afraid. I cry but no tears fall Im so dehydrated, but I do not have a thirst. My belly rumbles though, it doesnt crave food. When I try to eat, it doesnt stay down. Im too disgusted to eat, with myself with him with the men who have hurt me. I just cant take this anymore. I cannot be strong in this time of pain, it's just wayyy too much.

In the crimson river forming by my body, my soul will rise and look down upon the vessel it was just freed from. I will see the pain leave, the eyes go blank and most of all, I shall no longer be trapped within a web of hurt.